i received a really long msg from hun on skype..when i saw so many words,i noe wad kinda msg it is..but i felt happy cos he sent me such a long msg..but,at e same tym,i noe wad he will be sayin..hmm.read it thru and got me a little emotional..lucky george was aslp already..

i read and really wanted to tell him how i felt..cos he got it all wrong..lyk totally wrong..and he is wantin to change for tings which ive nv minded..hmm.but i noe i cannot,shud not and must not tell him..i'd be a selfish bitch if i did..oh well,he called me over e fone cos i dint reply him..den we started tokin tings out.he say he wont go out play will stay home..but tats not a problem in e first place..den he say he wont go high in anyway..but,tats not e problem too..but he keep arguin sayin tat it is..he says when he is out,im down.hmm.of course im down..cos ive got nth to do.im fine wif yew gng out..down cos yew wont send me msges on fb lyk i do when im out..but these reasons are nt 'it'..is is just tat smth hafta happen b4 everythin...so,yupps.i very very much wanna tell yew..but i noe yew'll change back to e normal fat a couple of days ago just lyk was he says all e tym...

i made examples to make him understand and noe how i felt at tat point of tym when tat was happenin..lyk,imagine him stayin at home waiting for me everyday den i go out wif frens.but nv sends him msges bout wad i am doin..den,when im back,im all down and starts sayin im a fucked gf,i feel so bad,i must pei yew and all those,how will he feel..will he feel as if im happier when im wif my fren and when wif him,i got nth to tok about..he replies he will tat way too..so,tats wad i meant..im fine wif him gng out play whole day liao,come home den pei me tok tok bout today,den he tired jiu slp le..tat way,im very happy le..

we tried tokin bout it..but i still kept wad i really tot.i dont mind if tings turn out as it is now..i aint wana give up on yew.. hmm.i feel bad enuff already.