Tuesday, March 15, 2011 @9:56 PM
15mar2011
hmm.woke up.but din feel lyk gng for lecture and workshop so continue to slp all w way till 12ish 1 den wake up..hmm..fb lovell on and offs when i wake up..yupps.hes havin another interview tomolo at orchard..hope everythin goes well..yupps.
hmm..i dunno y now im really scared or i dunno wads e rite word to describe e feelin i have towards his bro...hmm.i noe he meant well for lovell..wan him to play more and stuffs when he is young and all tat..wif him by lovells side,tellin him stuffs which are very big influences to lovell,mite just change tings just in a sec...i feel bad enuff leavin lovell alone in spore..den wif his bro sayin tis,i really dunno if im doin e rite ting anymore..i dunno if i shud be holdin on so tightly smth i cherish so much but am hurtin him so much in e end...i really aint wanna do tat to him..
when hes wif his bro,i just a normal reaction for me to back off..i aint wan him to be on bad terms and stuffs wif his bro..lyk,if he fbs me when his wif his bro,hes bro is unhappy wif him..den e next ting will be him tellin me its fine cant tok..but he nv replies..it makes me feel broken when he says smth just lyk tat,and not bein able to do it..although in my heart i noe i wont receive anythin from him even when he says he will,i still felt broken when he did not..den when his home,hes got to pei bro high..den same tings happens..oh well.its fine..but when he does,hes bro will be unhappy and tell him to stop..so...yupps..for now,i only noe i shud back off when lovells wif his bro..and tok to him when hes alone or just b4 he slps ba..riiitte..perhaps...or...maybe tings wud go towards e other way...i dunno and i aint wanna noe bout it now...im just empty now..
jr precious moments at 9:56 PM
