lovell went teoheng wif mom bro and jasmine..family day..how nice?..anw,went to sch den realised uni fir alarm went off!!so me,gemma and simona stood outside smoke lo..yupps.den everyone were standin dere lyk retards!cant imagine we had to queue to get into uni la!....hmm.den went in com room den started on our wiki ting den went to library borrow books den went for e fuckin lecture..was playin wif my cookie dozer all e way.hehe=)den break tym,me,gemma and simona just left lo..anw oso took attendance liao.den damn sian so decided to leave lo.yupps.

came home,den fb lovell for a while,den he disappeared..den i went to pom pom lo..den come out jiu make garlic bread..den lovell jiu done highin wif bro..den skype me..at  first okie okie..den he say i got wai yu,den i sian liao..anw,dint really tok at all.he say he dunno wad to say..say he got nth to say..so,yupps.den do e normal stuffs again..lyk its been relyin on tat lo..but,oh well..doesnt matter..hmm.den ate my garlic bread..toked bout george.as in e bit where george lied to zul bout e drinkin until drunk until cant rmb how we gt home and her bra was inside out..den lovell dared me to..so,ya..den i say he dare me to find other ppl to fuck me..den he was lyk nonono..but,ya..den i not dare him to go fuck other girls lo..yups.den say say say lyk bcome serious liao.he lyk raise voice le,so dont play le lo..

den he oso go play cookie dozer wif me..den ltr he angry liao cos i say i go find other ppl to fuck me cos he got me started..den he angry den went to slp..den yupps.den i continue my cookie dozer..den fell aslp for abit..den george came back..den cooked e left over soup for dinner.nv eat rice..ate soup and fish finger..den toked to alan..den watched kang xi..den i sit on e floor until my ass fuckin pain liao lo='(haix..

den george slp,now i gt nth to do again..so maybe will be playin cookie dozer all e way i suppose..sian..den tomolo dunno go where again..

hmm..will tings start changin?lovells bro been askin lovell bout our r/s..hmm.maybe lovell shud really start tinkin bout it..is it worth spendin so much tym on me when we dont noe e future?i feel bad..i aint wan him to be tis lonely and all..if he had another girl who is in spore,he wont be..he will be happily spendin his tym wif her..hmm..i dunno..tings doesn seem to get better..im scared..real scared..i haven been tokin to him for e past week..its been a week now..will i still be able to tok to him again lyk how we use to?tinkin back bout tat day,i was shocked tat was e kinda guy i noe..hmm..maybe it wasn him who changed but me who is bein ridiculous..i mean,i dunno..yupps..

i just feel lyk hidin in my room and doin nth now..just tinkin back all e tings we've been thru..from we gettin together,to tyms where he make me smile,to tyms where i break down for him,to tyms where i just stay awake for days just to tok to him,to tyms where i just did everythin for him,for tyms where i wan nth but him..everythin..tings tat hes told me,and i felt my heart break,everythin..i makes me tink tat,why has tings changed so much?wad have i done or not done?how shud i get tings back to where it was?shud i keep everythin inside and pretend nth happened so tat he'll be happy again?shud i just do tat?i tink i shud..i really aint wan anythin to change..