Tuesday, February 8, 2011 @2:54 AM
6feb2011
Hmm.apparently today lovell called me at 6ish in e morning,I dint hear it ring so nv wake up to answer..only woke up at 8ish den realised missed call liao=(so called him back..OB came in to wake alan up for breakfast..i dint go so can tok to lovell=)jasmine went to their place..den they eat liao,den lovell tok to me..we toked about e ting tat was gng on in my head…I asked why dint he tell me at tat point of tym when we were havin tat conversation on e fone tat nite about related stuffs.
hmm.dunno y I cried aft I asked him tat…den we did loads of scenario topics and everythin..but dint really get to tok bout it cos I was in a rush to pom pom and go out..so,we said we’ll give each other tym den we’ll reply e answer on fb or tok bout it in e nite=)haha!aft everythin was done,called lovell den realised he was already out wif dad liao.eatin wif dad den sent bro in army…
hmm.we dint fb much..i had yam cha for lunch.was really good!!=)satisfied!!=)haha!aft tat went separate ways wif OB and her fren..me and didi went to buy cigs first den went walkin down oxford circus.alan damn bastard.he went river island damn long.den I pei him..toked to lovell thru out=)den we toked bout e scenario ting again..den apparently I kept askin e same tings except wif different ppl!!!den he not hapy liao.so nv continue to ask lo..i don’t care I go back spore,must ask until I happy=(hehe=)den I went disney,he keep rushin me to go off!!wtf?!...
anw,smoke outside Disney shop wif didi for e first tym!!i mean I nv knew he smoked!!!asshole!!!!!....aft smoke and Disney,it was about tym to go back to selfridge to meet OB liao.so went den hang around dere abit while tokin to lovell.he was high and went to nicol hse..ya..so dunno wads wrong wif me tis few days,wantin to go crazy and stuffs,I told lovell I wanna be high too!!!but I cant so I zi high for e moment..den he was lyk,when I go back den he high wif me..hahah!=)…I dunno wads up wif me these 2 days!i kinda lyk don’t control myself anymore lyk I use to…lyk fang kai liao..everythin just do only..dont care so much..haha!=)tats a good ting I suppose?
Anw,saw OB den hang up liao.den he go play wif e rest cos he reach le..den,we went to tis museum to have aftnoon tea..posh place,but lousy tea though.haha!=)dint enjoy it..aft tea,me,bro and OB went shoppin at pull and bear..bought a jeans shorts for 7.99pounds=)considered cheap in spore=)so bought it lo=)wanted a white one actually…but too ex..aft buyin,went to didis river island..he bought tis top..spent so much tym choosin it..lyk usual!!urgh!!den I bought smth really cool=)haha!left den took tube back to apartment..so crowded and warm!!!!
Reach home and cant be bothered to move.sat on bed den started zi pai-in=)took lyk I dunno how many pics of myself la!hahah!=)anw,lovell called sayin he walkin home liao.tat was lyk only 230.he say damn sian.he high but go dere watch movie and see em play mahjong nia.haha!=)pei him tok till he got home,den I went to help out for dinner.asked him to orh orh first so I’ll call him when im done wif everythin den pei him tok..den he say okie,which in e end was a lie!he dint slp!!
Aft dinner he fb me..hmm..i dunno wads wrong wif me.i really wanna stick to lovell now!lyk really..i wanna be wif him for eternity!never separatin!i wanna be married to him!!really do!!wads wrong wif me?so fang kai already,until I have no controls over my emotions and everythin!!!!haah=)it was sweet when I saw’ lets get married’!!really was!!=)hah!anw,he called den ran to e room den toked on e fone den I dint hafta do e dishes so thanks hun for callin agt e rite tym and savin me=)hehe.
Hmm.we toked..i kinda lyk tell him I really do love him a lot!he sent me ‘I wanna start a life wif yew,I wanna lyk work and come home seein me studyin or usin laptop waitin for me...den spendin tym together everyday.off days,we go out shoppin buy groceries or watch movie or go ecp walk walk.’tat made me imagine bout it and I really wan a simple life wif him..if only everythin cud be so simple=)
Oh ya,im gonna hafta look for money to fly back to spore secretly!!lyk really.i don’t care how I get e money..anws will do as long as I get e money to fly back to spore!=)lovell wans to noe wad ways.but,I mean for me,anw to get money is good enuff!i don’t care how!just do!!!i love him!i cant wait another 2 more months!really!hmm.he said im really sweet today?lyk he dint expect me to say all these at all..i tink I am but,I dunno y I suddenly lyk tat..i just wanna be lyk tat!i love bein lyk tat!i love being myself in tis way=)den,I asked him to mention everythin tat ive promised him tat I’ll do which I did not.he did and it was indeed quite abit of em!!haha!=)sorrie!i promised him I’ll do it when I come back to spore tis tym round!i promise!i wanna do it!!no forcings,i wanna do em wif yew!=)really do..just don’t be lyk surprised y I suddenly changed until lyk tat!haha!=)I love yew and I aint wanna pretend infront of yew anymore!i wanna be myself.i don’t wan to lyk keep everythin lyk actions and everythin to myself.must more fang=)haha!apparently he was tooo gan dong and he cried!!haha!=)don’t cry hun,im doin everythin bcos I love yew and I wanna do it!i love yew very much=)
Anw,I promised I will and I wan to do everythin he wans wif him..really do..no matter wad it is,other den go kill ppl,I will do it wif yew hun=)okie.den I cud tell tat he is really tryin so hard to stay awake..so made him go to bed..held on e fone den kup aft he fell aslp=)
I really miss him a lot..i wanna do all e crazy stuffs wif him..im comfortable bein who I am now..i lyk havin tis ‘motto’ – live once,therefore do wadever I wanna do and feel lyk doin!!=)I really love it!i must try everythin!and I wud really wan to do it wif lovell=)im deeply in love and I dunno y I seem sooooo crazy these 2 days!is tat good?
Ps.Lovell lim,yew lyk me bein who I am now?lyk everythin so fang and more initiative?=)do yew prefer me to be more initiative or not(lyk need yew to start everythin)?=)I love yew hun=)tell me ur answer when yewve read tis post yea?=)
ur crazy gf=)
