woke up wif lovells fone ringin.tink it was his mom or denley ba=)hhaha!but he was aslp.so he dont rmb wad denley said.hahah!=)anw,lovell woke me up at around930.den my stomach fuckin pain lo=(haix.den i continue slp lo..fuckin pain la!i only noe i wake up look at lovell,he was slpin all along lo..haha!but off and on i can hear him tokin to mom and everythin.haha!=)den he tried wakin me up at 11ish..den mt stomach still fuck pain='(den in e end nv go school liao lo=(wanted to go de.but really damn pain la!=(haix.

den finally woke up at 1.but lovell wasnt dere.he went to pom pom.den tok to him when he came back=)we toked for e whole day lo!!hehe=)he say his mom tomolo wanna go shoppin wif him at ion..wanna buy him a belt,lucky i dint buy for him tat day=)imagine lovell lim holdin mummys hand shoppin at ion!hahah!so cute and funny!!hahahha!

and den,he bloody hell lied to me la!urgh!i asked him if he high,he said no.liar!!he's e one who wans to stop e highness.den wan me help him..den,lyk i said,if i dont allow,he'll hide it from me and do it!!and,true enuff..3 days and he did it....oh well,den he hungry so went to make soup which turned to be maggie mee=)his mom make for him..den shun bian tok to him..so we dint tok lo..den i called mummy to tok to her lo..tis 2 weeks dint tok to her at all.haha!=)den tok to her and daddy.den,tok tok tok tok tok.mummy bought me a desigual top and wanted to buy me a bag.but dint buy cos scared i dont lyk.lucky she dint buy!so ex!hahah!=)i rather she get me wad i wanted all along=)hehehe=)

okie.aft kup wif mummy,den toked back wif lovell.hmm.he called leon den gng out wif him ltr..so ya..go out wif leon means high again le.so,ya..anw,toked to jasmine too!!i totally understand how she feels.shes feelin how i felt all along..but when yew love somebody so much,yew loss ur rational and yewve just gotta ren everythin..maybe its lyk wad jasmine said..hafta be emotionless which she doesnt wan to be lyk,which i already am to certain tings..anw,we talked bout it den made me kinda down and tink thru e past 10months..and realised im so different from who i tot i am!haha!!=)love!love is so painful sometyms.but,its fine as long as lovell is happy=)

okie.den i was so hungry so cook maggie again.den leon called den lovell was gng out soon le..toked abit more,den leon called so,he went out..so he go out wif leon so defo high de.haix..nvm..i dowan to restrict him from anythin..he can do wad he feels lyk and wad he lyks=)den,he went off..

hmm.dunno leh..sometyms just feel tat...i noe he wanna be wif me all e tym..but he defo feels bored bout bein home everyday just tokin to me.he wans to go out and have fun and not stay home lyk everyday just to tok to me.tis was wad i meant from e beginnin..i aint wanna lock him down.look,if dere wasn me,he couldve been out every single nite havin fun instead of stayin in his small room tokin to me..i dont wan him to be doin tis.but when he goes out,im lyk down for a bit but,im fine tat hes gng out.but maybe not wif his bros fren ba..i dunno.haix..just even his clique,now im feelin abit lyk..i dunno..haix.needa change!!!!!!mel say i cannot be tooo sticky!!so i needa be less sticky or non stick at all!!!CHANGE!!!=)yea.and jasmine..jasmine is feelin how i feel so often,almost everyday..hopefully she doesnt do silly stuffs!!but if its me,im sure i will be doin silly tings!...hmm..if i were to be single,i wud ask her to ignore everythin and tok tings out..if doesnt work out,den bye bye..but now im in e same situation as her,all i can tell her is ren!!everythin oso ren!even if tok to him bout it,maybe he changes for a day or 2,but,e 3rd,he'll change back to wad he was lyk 3 days ago..so,deres no point in tokin to em about it...just hafta be strong and ren everythin=)den e r/s will be alright=)jasmine,we work towards our goal together which is makin e brothers happy!=)