A moment like this...

Monday, February 28, 2011 @10:52 PM

28feb2011

woke up at afew tyms and went back to slp..lovell called me back when skype kup=)dint really tok to him..i rmb liao.woke up at around 9ish ba?den was tinkin y lovell was still dere..he shud be out wif bro liao wad cos it was already 551..den wait for him here and dere den he jiu went out wif bro liao..

i had a weird dream..i dreamt bout pigs!lyk proper pigsllden i dreamt tat i was at my hse downstairs waitin for alan naked!!..damn stupid dream..den i had loads of other dreams which i cant rmb..oh well..but not good to have dreams..it feels lyk i haven slpt at all..haix='(

lovell said tat im very angry these few days..am i??i dunno..hmm..i tink i needa control my temper already den...dowan him to feel tat i very fierce and all..den he oso say i very sad today..hmm.did i have tat sad face again??haix..needa control emotions beta now..if not lovell will say bout it..dowan him down or feel bad..so,beta control well..

daddy called..told me he called lovell..and said lovell found a job..and my first reaction was,'huh?!?found a job?!really meh?!'cos i was still aslp.den i realised lovell must have lied..so i said 'oh ya'.haha!hmm.daddy mummt gng back hk again on e 4th cos yeye bdae den need lovell help to look aft e dogs again..sorrie hun..yew startin work liao.den still need yew to run to my place to look aft e dogs..den hafta work den nite tym pei bro..haix..yew sure damn tired de..sorrie and thanks hun..

hun dint fb me when he went out so i kinda slpt for e whole aftnoon..den he stupid..cos go bro fren hse high den nv eat dinner.lucky he at least had 2 baos b4 gng out..den he had mua chi and my fav chicken ting!so he kinda had 2 of e tings i wanna eat in a day la!!damn him!now his on his way home..but i suppose he will high wif bro one more tym..so,i tink i just lay in bed and wait ba=)

hmm.and i suppose im not gonna go to sch liao.i really cant be bothered.tomolo den go la..hahah!!=)

jr precious moments at 10:52 PM

@9:38 AM

28feb2011

today my room dunno why damn cold lo..sian!!i hide under blanket,oso feel lyk i in freezer sia!!!!hmm.tink im gonna slp early tonight..so,can tok to lovell ltr when he wake up=)hmm..he ltr hafta go interview for his new job..hopefully everythin goes well lo..haix.makes me feel bad..he shud be endin attachment soon de lo..but,cos of me,he here stop dere stop liao lo..hmm.tis is his 3rd job liao lo..hopefully it goes well den he can end attachment soon...hm.now he hafta go to work soon everyday he will be damn tired liao..but his bro will be home for another 3 weeks..which oso means everyday he will high wif him..work liao den high he sure cannot take it de lo..haix..but its up to him though..i will support him no matter wad jiu dui le!!muuackx!!i love yew hun!!!

jr precious moments at 9:38 AM

@9:30 AM

happy 11th month!!!

hun,happy 11th month!!!although deres no 30th tis month,but plus minus e days from other months so other months only 30 days,it shud be 11months since we got together already!!hehe=)muuackx!!thanks hun for tolerating me and acceptin who i am for e past 11months!!

im sorrie tat i cant pei yew for tis 11th month..im sorrie i cant pei yew for e 1 yr anni..sorrie..i come back will b everythin back to yew de,i promise..okie??i love yew hun!!!!muuuuuuaaacccckkkxx!!!!

jr precious moments at 9:30 AM

@7:40 AM

27feb2011

lovell went out to eat at i dunno where wif bro's grp of frens.so good..haix..den,he fb me a few tyms den nv liao aft he got home den high wif bro..oh well,i wasn expectin him to but yew noe,dere is still tis tiny bit where i tot he wud...i dint reply yew much stuffs cos i dont wan him to feel lyk i was disturbin him..anw,as i was about to go pom pom he called me.but he lemme go pom pom first..so,yea...

pom pom finish den tok to him lo..hmm.den somehow,he and i lyk nv tok for abit cos he not happy wif me and i cant rmb wad for..haha!so yea..continue nv tok until i finish eatin my risotto lo.he keeps tinkin i angry wif him and stuffs.but i really nv lo..den we started tokin den we watchin video..watch funny advertisements and watched e accidents and all tat.damn funny lo.haha!=)yupps.watched tat valentine present tingy lo..damn disgustin la!eww..hmm.now tink back,me and him tok very little now liao lo.haix.lyk every nite aft he slp,tink back,we lyk nv tok at all lo only did..........yupps.but nvm la.he happy jiu can liao=)

hmm.lovell feels tat he nv spend enuff tym wif me den he go to bed i will feel lyk no an quan gan..actually he got it wrong..hmm.i dont have an quan gan when i tok to him when i wake up or when he is back.cos when i wake up,his bro is back,or its usually e tym where he can meet frens.so,when i wake up,den i ask him to slp again instead of tokin to me cos,i noe when we slp and i wake up,he will not be dere already.at least it doesnt make me feel as down as him gng straight away from me when his bro calls him to high or when he needa go out..yupps.hmm.i noe tis is very childish and im sure i can overcome tis..so,hun yew dont hafta worry bout it=)i will be fine=)he questioned me if i was really happy wif him..i really am very happy to be wif yew!really!im not kiddin at all..

thanks hun for makin me smile today.im really happy!thanks hun!!thanks very much.please dont question urself anymore..i love yew!muuuackx!!!=)

jr precious moments at 7:40 AM

Sunday, February 27, 2011 @7:55 PM

27feb2011

woke up and hun wasnt dere already..he went out just lyk i expected..but dunno wad i was actually hopin for..anw,dont noe where he is gng and wif who..i realised i dont noe wad lovell is doin all e tym now..i shant be so demandin..i shall go back to slp den..

jr precious moments at 7:55 PM

@4:38 PM

27feb2011

lovell called me he was in e toilet liao..he stomach pain pain aft drinnkin koi..i sooo wanna drink koi lo..ahahah!!oh well..he poo poo finish den went back room den oso nv tok..just stare at him only...feel happy enuff to be able to stare at him=)
aft everythin,he make me slp again..so,i hafta slp lo..but awhile he went offline liao.so,skype kup..hmm.now spore almost 5 liao.by e tym i wake up,i suppose lovell oso wif bro liao..but nvm,at least i got to tok to him today liao..so its fine le..thanks hun for tokin to me although yew so tired..muuackx!!!

jr precious moments at 4:38 PM

@11:26 AM

27feb2011

i cant slp..i wanna wait till lovell wake up den say good nite and tell him i love him..just bein able to tell him tat,will be enuff for e day already..i'll wait..i wanna be able to say it to him b4 he goes out for e day and b4 i go to bed..muuackx..i noe him bein very childish..but,i still wanna do it...

jr precious moments at 11:26 AM

@10:39 AM

27feb2011

i miss lovell lim so much='(so badly!!very badly!very very badly!

i noe tomolo lovell will not be home cos his bro will be in as he dont hafta go to e course tingy..so,i'll be expectin to be home alone waitin for him..i noe he'll defo be high wif bro tomolo too..hmm..tis one month his bro no needa book in,i suppose he will be high-in everyday liao..so yea..i suppose i wont be able to tok to him till he is back from pei-in his bro again ba..anw,i tink i'll go to bed soon le ba..

i wan tings to be beta..i wan lovell to be happy..i wan him to...i dunno..i just wan him to be happy even if i cant keep him by my side..i dunno..im gng crazy liao...lalala!!!i miss him!i wanna see him!='(i dont mind just starin at him even if i dont get to tok to him...i love yew hun!!!

jr precious moments at 10:39 AM

@9:03 AM

27feb2011

i miss lovell lim so much='(so so much='(i love yew..

jr precious moments at 9:03 AM

@8:58 AM

27feb2011

hmm.lovel was back really quickly=)toked to me for afew mins den fell aslp le=)haha!see..he so tired!!haix..within 1min he fell aslp liao.haha!=)he's a pig pig!!PIG PIG!!haha!!

well..had some vodka..but totally not enuff to drink at all..but,still,drank,den lovell went to bed..i watch my drama while drinkin,den went down to smoke..aft smoke feel much more calmer now=)hehe=)now,im hungry..dunno wad to eat..hmm.oh ya..risotto was not as good..too hard liao.but,i lyk hard hard de..but tat was too hard though..tomolo needa cook wif more water=)hehe!hmm.now smokin makes me calmer liao wor..how??tats just crap!!

hmm.lookin at lovell slp,makes me damn bad!!he seems so unhappy='(bein in a relationship,he shud be happy..but it seems lyk he is not happy at all.im sorrie i cant make yew happy at all..sorrie!!

now,lovell is slpin and snorin!!!he must be really tired!!he only snores when he is really tired..sorrie hun..everytym make yew pei me den yew so tired..sorrie..i love yew!i really do love yew!i dont mean to make yew so miserable.im so sorrie!i promise i'll cherish yew...i wont make yew unhappy and miserable again..although im here,i noe yew will be lyk tat..but i really hope yew'll be happy..and i wanna thank yew for findin ways to make me happy!!although deres no 30th tis month,im happy ive spent 11months wif yew as my bf!thanks hun!=)thanks for toleratin me and wantin me=)i love yew!=)

jr precious moments at 8:58 AM

@8:04 AM

26feb2011

lovell was done wif bro den called me.den he lyk down down..hmm..sorrie i toked to melvin..i promise i wont tok to melvin again le.im sorrie hun..make yew so down..hmm.den he tell me his feelings and everythin..sorrie.toked for abit,his bro came in to his room ask him to high again..and he said okie..so he went off..b4 he went off he asked me if i was given a second chance,will i still wanna be wif him??and will i ask him to be together 11months ago if he dint ask me..

i answered him i will still wanna be wif him if given a second chance..and,i will not ask him to be together if he dint ask me..i will try to be close wif him and stuffs but i will not ask him..i dont mind if tings happened even if we werent couples at tat tym..im willin to do anythin to for him..will i still wanna be wif him if i knew if he was tis busy doin his own stuffs.but my answer is,yes i will..i love him..i will do wadever it takes just to be close to him...really..

now,lovells high-in wif bro,den i shall find tings to do on my own=)i shall drink tonight den..since tomolo is sunday oso nth to do..yupps....

jr precious moments at 8:04 AM

@4:36 AM

26feb2011

wad a borin day..sian!!!lovell went out wif james and all.so,as expected,he dint fb me=)its fine..jasmine told me leonard tomolo no needa go to e course ting.den i was wonderin how come lovell nv pei bro when tomolo leonard no needa wake up early..i was tinkin how come lovell no needa high wif leonard.and guess wad i saw when i see my fb inbox?haha!=)he say he go high wif bro and leon..so,im actually quite smart lo..i noe tings b4 hand.haha!!=)oh well..gonna go cook risotto for dinner aft i go down for a smoke=)yupps.

jr precious moments at 4:36 AM

@1:29 AM

26feb2011

i woke up early wantin to pei lovell tok..den lovell dont lemme tok to him.wan me continue slp..den say will pei me e whole day today..but in my mind,i was tinkin he sure go out wif bro ltr when his bro come back..but i still wentb back to slp lo..den i woke up again at i forgot wad tym.haha!=)and guess wad?!he was still dere!!!he was still dere!!!!!!!!!he went pom pom den jasmine and leonard were wif mom in e kitchen eatin drumlets..hmm.they laugh until very happy and everythin lo.make me feel damn sad cos im not dere to pei lovell..sorrie hun.

anw,he pom pom finish den tok awhile den he watch his drama den make me slp again.so i slp for another hr plus den woke up at 2ish..wake up liao,lovell still dere!!i was expectin him to not be dere already lo..den i still see him dere,i feel damn happy!!!but oso have tis damn no an quan gan feelin though.lyk he will eventually go out ltr no matter wad..lyk anytym he will be gng out..anw,it doesnt matter=)and,i receive sooooo many many many many fb msges from him!!!!i feel so happy!=)hehe=)and he already pei me whole day liao!=)den pei him tok tok tok tok tok.toked bout les and gays and everythin.haha!=)den toked bout last tym when i realised tat i loved him alot..den toked bout e first tym and everythin..den he become down again..so,i say tok bout e les and gay topic instead=)hehe=)den he watch his drama until he cannot hear me at all.idiot!!cannot multi-task lo!idiot!!
i feel kinda bad though..today he pei me but i nv pei him!i only slp slp slp!haix.he send me msgs sayin he felt bad cos i fall aslp so quickly..im so sorrie hun..i realised its either he slp den i wait for him he wake up den he go out le,if not den is i slp,he wake up den when i wake up liao den he go out le..so im willin to sacrifice my slp for him..i oso feel bad make him tink tat i very tired den he ask me slp den i so fast jiu fall aslp le..sorrie hun..i promise i will be beta.muackx!!i love yew hun!=)

hmm.den we tok tok tok until around 4 den i got off e bed liao=)hehe=)finally..den tok tok tok awhile more,den he receive fone call liao..from james.first call he say he dowan to go out meet him.but tat feelin of no an quan gan,him gng out anytym is dere..den awhile more lovell receive second call..tats when i got tis feelin 'yes i noe lovell will be gng out no matter wad tonight..'and,he called me back and tell me he gng out to 85 meet james,ali and val..so,ya..expected.just dunno wad tym will go out only..haha!=)so,dere he goes..but he kept his promise though.he did pei me until 12am.so he did pei me whole day today liao=)so,hopefully he enjoys himself tonite=)he say he will fb me,but,i noe he wudnt de..so,its fine=)he wans to make me happy so say will fb me..but everytym he oso nv fb me de..so,used to it le ba=)he happy can liao=)so,its fine tat he says anythin just to make me happy!=)thanks hun for pei-in me for e whole day=)

okie.den tokin to jasmine.she left on her own..leonard say he lazy den nv pei her cos she slpin..jasmine was damn hungry lo..den leonard say will pei her go eat b4 she go home.but,leo nv wake up.den she cannot go home late,so she left on her own...dunno y but i feel so bad bout it..maybe cos i noe how she felt at tat point of tym..jasmine lyk give in so much but leonard lyk dont care her..oh well.its their relationship prob,i cant say anythin bout it..hopefully everythin will be fine wif em ba=)

now lovell is out wif james,i dunno wad to do liao..watch drama,den lie in bed,den ltr cook,den lie in bed den watch drama again..sian...so damn borin..but oh well..i feel so useless liao..useless until i wanna hide in a small room forever and ever!dont do anythin just stay in tis room.....nvm..maybe cos im used to it le ba=)

jr precious moments at 1:29 AM

Saturday, February 26, 2011 @12:07 PM

26feb2011

hmm.i fell aslp aft marica came and ask me to put her monopoly board on my radiator to dry it..so help her lo..den she say she 1 hr ltr den come take from me=)and guess wad?i fell aslp.hehe!!den woke up at 2den go pee pee den marica came out den i pass her lo..den wake up liao,mouth damn itchy lo..is lyk damn fuckin itchy lo!!!so find snacks to eat..sian..nth to eat at all lo..den ate egg rolls lo...den drink apple juice..

hmm.den lovell woke up to pick me upright and put me properly den feel aslp again.hehe=)and he slp tok again!!!!!haha!!but dunno wad he say though...hmm.tink im gonna go slp now liao ba..hmm.i tink lovell will wake up around 2ish3 ba=)which means i cant pei him tok again liao..now already 12.now den i go slp,by e tym i wake up,he already out wif bro liao,if nt jiu pei bro high ba..so cant tok to him again le..tink will tok to him aft he come home,aft he pei bro ba..wait for another day to pass lyk tat..hopefully days will pass faster!!

hmm..maybe tomolo go grocery shoppin if im alone ba..wanna buy milk,veg,mushrooms,meat fruits and eggs..but needa save money..so for now maybe eat risotto for now ba..sat eat risotto,sun eat porridge wif mince meat ba..den mon den go buy..lyk tat can save money..yupps.lyk tis,can shun bian lose weight too=)ehehe

hmm.seein lovell slp,makes me tink bout e tyms we have passed together..i realised we have been thru quite abit..it seems lyk its a drama..can me into a drama already..makes me cherish him even more..hmm..hopefully i am as important to him as he is to me=)even if im slighted,its fine..i love him,i am willin to do anythin for him.thanks hun for all tat yewve done for me.i love yew=)

jr precious moments at 12:07 PM

@8:25 AM

25feb2011

hmm.today toked to mummy,now everythin okie liao..so its good tat its all okie liao.lovell called me.den he go pom pom..den he tell me he high..lyk expected eh..im so smart arent i?expected he slack means high liao de..okie la.he pom pom come out,jiu eat his left over chicken rice,while i eat my maggie mee.dunno y..today dont feel lyk eatin at all lo=(haix.dunno y.was hungry..but,cook finish liao,den dont feel lyk eatin leh..but still forced myself to eat..but left 2 meatballs..yupps.

okie.den he go smoke,den go back to room..den tok tok tok.den lovell naughty naughty..haha!!den we kinda played for an hr plus!!!!!den damn tired oso.lovell oso cant slp cos he needa wake bro up liao den can slp...so we tok abit den he jiu go wake bro up liao lo..his mom oso wake up liao.his mom gng to e market..den damn funny la!!!he ask me wait den he went wake bro up...den i tink he received a fone call or smth..den i kena hold..den i not wait lo..wait wait wait..he nv come back..den i tot he fell aslp liao..but somehow,he kup e fone liao..so i fb him lo..in e end,he was waitin for me,i was waitin for him..haha!!how silly of us?hehe=)den he call me back lo..den he damn tired den slp slp le lo=)muuuackx!!i love yew hun!sweet dreams!=)although lovell told me he will pei me whole day today,but its fine tat he went out wif bro club..he pei-ed me e whole nite aft he got back already=)so,thanks very much hun!!!

tis week feel not very well.chest pain and all.haven been slpin well oso..been on standby mode lately..dint slp well oso..wait for lovell wake up until i fall aslp..den keep wakin up to see if he sent me msgs on fb or call me..sometyms he nv send me anything.so i will keep wakin up and checkin..if not den will keep reply him or tok to him if he calls me..i really wanna noe wad he is doin..it makes me feel lyk im involve wif wad he is doin..i rmb him sayin he'll tell me wad he is doin thru fb,but he only did it for 2 days and stopped..but at least he made e effort to do it for 2 days=)thanks hun=)muuackx!!

i dunno how come im doin it..but i wanna do it..i do feel down e moment i see tat he dint send me anythin on fb but,im willin to wait=)lovell gonna start work soon..i dunno how his shift is gonna be lyk..so,i wanna pei him as much as i can now until his bro is back from e course ting.den he pei bro,denwhen bro slp,i can pei him again until he fall aslp den everythin starts over again=)hmm.i tot for abit today..am i happy lyk tat now?am i havin wad i wan?hmm..i love lovell lim.im willin to wait for him everyday..im fine wif him gng out clubbin lyk tat and gng out as and when he lyks,and i'll stay home waitin for him..sometyms he seems to lyk put me in e second place now already..but tats fine.he shud,since im not dere in spore..so,its fine to be placed at e second place=)i dont mind..i love him..muuuackx!!!

jr precious moments at 8:25 AM

@4:00 AM

25feb2011

hmm.wake up went down smoke den come up eat bread den went pom pom.den watch drama..yupps...hmm.lovell is back home from e club liao..den he pei bro slack awhile..i suppose is slack means high le ba..dunno..hmm.i told lovell tell leonard tat jasmine mite be still awake..so,dont go online..just cooked magggie mee..sian!eat maggie..tomolo eat maggie again.must eat until mon den got sch den go buy..sian...

jr precious moments at 4:00 AM

@12:53 AM

25feb2011

lovell gave me a short call at spore 9ish tell me he gng club liao.so say bye bye den kup le.den ask me dont tell jasmine.so,ya.den i went back to slp till around here almost 4 den wake up.den went down for a smoke..den came back up..den call mummy..he and alan okie liao..so,ya.den now wait for heater den go pom pom.den maybe lie in bed watch drama again ba..yupps.

hmm.last nite marco told me he made out wif a girl when we were still together durin xmas..which means it happened when we were only together for awhile and e first holiday where we went back...he expected me to make a fuss outta it.but i dint..i mean,wads e point of makin a fuss?yewre just my fren now.even if yew told me at tat point of tym,i suppose i wont make a fuss too..he asked me why am i so calm and everythin when i heard..its cos,yewre just my fren now.e past is e past..even if lovell calls me now and tell me he fucked another girl,i'll just say orh..i noe my heart will break,but i wouldnt make a fuss outta it.i'd pretend tat nth happen.i'll definitely be disappointed but it'll go away..yea..so,its fine..its fine if lovell goes out and play..i rmb tellin my mom if my bf play outside,i will be very cool type just dump em only..but when it comes to lovell now,i cant do wad i said to my mom..

today lovell said will pei me at home e whole day..but i noe its not possible..but i was happy enuff tat he's got tat thought though..now hes outta wif bro clubbin,and im sure when he come home,he'll be lyk im so sorrie.i feel lyk im a fucked up boyfren and all..but,oh well..tats fine...e moment i sent tat =) to yew,i noe wad kinda person yew are..so,its fine hun..im prepared and gettin used to it now=)muackx!i love yew!

jr precious moments at 12:53 AM

Friday, February 25, 2011 @7:13 PM

25feb2011

yay!!lovell called me when he wake up..or rather,i fb him liao den he call me de.cos he already finished eatin when he called me..but at least he called me=)hehe=)hmm.pei him tok tok tok den he sing sing sing=)den he pom pom den we tok tok tok tok tok and he sing sing sing again!!.happy happy!!!den he say today pei me whole day..but i noe it wont be e case de..so i dowan slp..pei him tok now..cos if i slp wake up,he sure will be pei-in bro even if he say he wont go out and will pei me whole day now..so pei him tok now instead lo..

den his bro came back liao..den we tok awhile more den he fell aslp le.so now i suppose wont tok to him until he come back from clubbin le ba..he gng clubbin wif bro ltr..so,at least i woke up and tok to him now if not,hafta wait till he come home from clubbin at around 4ish5,den he oso tired liao..den i oso wont wan him to pei me liao..

anw,thanks hun,for pei-in me tok so long ytd and today=)thanks!!muuuackx!i love yew=)

jr precious moments at 7:13 PM

@9:57 AM

25feb2011

my neck,head and chest hurts='(how?really hurts lyk hurts!!lyk pain to e bone tat kind lo..haix...please go away please???

jr precious moments at 9:57 AM

@8:55 AM

24feb2011

dint go to school today again..headache and chest pain again!been lyk tat for afew days liao sia!=(den lovell called me=)yay!!happy but dunno leh..tok awhile,den he went to watch hse of wax wif his bro lo..den i watch my ming zhong lo..yupps.den awhile more lovell jiu cal me again liao..he called me at here 4=)kinda early though..den we toked toked toked all e way lo..

we toked quite abit today=)but ltr tok bout not happy tings again..he say he feel bad bout him being a horrible bf..hmm.im not sayin he is bad!!he asked me if he changed..hmm.maybe he did change in some way..but,tats fine..i will and wan to get use to it!i wan him to be happy!i wanna be wif him forever!so,it doesnt matter..really..it doesnt matter..hmm.he also said i got wai yu too.it did make me down at tat moment lo.made my heart twitch even harder..but,can tahan..can tahan wont cry=)so,its fine=)

aft awhile,mummy called,den say me!!say she left alan a msg..say she tell alan to pretend they are dead and dont bother callin home anymore...den she was sayin she is also sayin it to me..hmm.den kup fone liao lo.den lovell ask me wad happen,i jiu cry liao lo..den lovell dunno wad to say..i cry awhile jiu okie liao though.den fb alan ask him call him,and guess wad?!he did!!!!yay!!lyk finally!!but i dunno e result of e call though..he dint reply me when i ask him...den tok to lovell until around 6 den he go slp..lovell dont feel well lo..haix..his nose runnin away..hopefully he dont sick..he startin work anytym now liao..haix.hmm.he slp liao den i watch kangxi lo..den watch hk drama..den finished up e left over of e pasta lo..

hmm.i feel bad for makin lovell feel lyk wad he felt just now lo..i really dint wan him to feel lyk tat..i dont mind he change!as long as we're together,everythin will be alright..i dont mind him gng out and playin all e tym..im serious bout wad i said..i really meant wad i said too..i dont wan lovell to feel lyk how he felt anymore..maybe i shud keep quiet everytym den he wouldnt feel lyk tat anymore lo..yupps.i love him..i wan him.i need him..im willin to do anythin for him=)muuuackx!!

anw,e skype wif lovell kup liao=(it kup lyk 10mins aft he wen to bed..sadded='(i miss him..i wan him..i realised i really hope and love it when lovell hugs me from behind tightly when we're on e bed!!=)its makes me smile when i tink bout it!its really sweet when i tink bout it=)thanks hun=)i love yew!!muackx!!

jr precious moments at 8:55 AM

Thursday, February 24, 2011 @9:35 PM

24feb2011

oh yea..i had to weird dreams tis mornin...

first..i rmb i went shoppin at ion wif mummy and daddy but i lost em..den i kepy gng up and down e escalator lookin for em..den i cant find em.somehow,lovell lim appeared!!he appeared outta nowhere,and stood rite infront of me!!!!=)i was so happy!!!so,i forgot bout daddy and mummy!!den went shoppin wif lovell instead=)hehe=)we walked everywhere!!!shop shop shop!dunno where i and lovell come e money de..i bought everythin i wanted leh!iphone,bag..everythin la!!haha!=)den dunno y from orchard ion,we came to chinatown!!!!!den duno y got alot of animals exhibition..it was showin all e weird weird animals!!den i so excited,walk walk walk,den lost lovell!!!!!='(i ran around lookin for him den cried='(but while lookin for him,i saw somthin really cute!!when i found lovell,i brought him to tat cage dere to show him..but e lights off liao.den dunno wad happened to lovell he went crazy den go carry e animal outta cage,den go shake it..den guess wad?!lovell disappeared!!he become in e leave!!!den its a munched up leave..so he only have his head left..den a passer-by saw,den say needa have 50pounds to get him outta dere..but we spent all our money tat aftnoon from shoppin..den i rmbed i can go ask from an uncle upstairs..dunno y i tot lyk tat..den i ran off..den ran to e uncle,uncle today lend='(den lovell called me liao..say my dad is here to pick us up..he was all fine liao!!!!!!really all fine le!!=)he was in a whole!!hmm.den got on car,he was so angry wif me!!den he touch me,den i damn scared la!!!!!!lyk proper dont dare to move at all lo..i was sooo scared of him..really scared of him!!so scared until i wake up lo.....haix...

second,i dreamt i had an assignment..and i was workin in a grp wif cheryl and jiahan..dunno how come..haha!!we were given an assignment needa make a dress..so i suppose is textile class lo..den,we collected loads of info from 2 rooms.den i was sayin we shud make a long dress..den very special tat kind..den i tot of makin a orange dress or a waterfall lyk dress=)hhehe!!so many ideas!!!hehe!den cheryl and jiahan no comments de ma..so i alot ideas all say out lo!!aft decidin and toked bout our dress,we went to watch movie or smth..den while walkin to e cinema,we saw firdaus and e grp!!and guess wad i saw!!!!!!firdaus smokin!!!!!mao mao smoke leh!!!wow!!den i oso smoke lo.hehe=)but,my lighter not workin!!!and in my dream jiahan wasnt a smoker...so she no lighter..in e end hafta borrow maomaos cig to light mine=)den smoke finish we went toilet.den damn stupid ting happened in e toilet which i cant rmb..i only rmb until i finish smokin den went to a restaurant to throw cig!!den a guy scold me say no smokin inside..den i oso dunno wad i doin too!!hahahahahah!!=)damn stupid dreams rite??hahaha!!=)

jr precious moments at 9:35 PM

@8:44 PM

24feb2011

woke up alot of tyms to see if lovell was awake anot..den by 4,i sent lovell fb msg..he replied and said he dint wanna disturb me so nv tell me he wake up liao..he woke up at 3ish i tink?dunno..den he called me on skype den i continue slp liao lo..woke up alot of tyms den see lovell,but he wasnt dere.so i continue slp lo..ya..woke up at 8,he kup liao.cos his bro is back..anw,woke up wif swollen eye and my chest still pain lo.haix.am i dyin soon?haix..

he sent me msg say he feel he very bad tat he wanna play but wanna pei me too.but cant do both at e same tym..hmm.tats fine..he pei bro play,its fine..not angry or upset la..tis mornin tok to him,he said sorrie to me cos he dint call me..i wasnt angry or wad la.den he asked me no needa say sorrie izzit cos im used to it already?hmm.to be honest,im really used to him doin smth and sayin sorrie to me already..him sayin sorrie doesnt seem lyk its sincere anymore..it seems lyk just a word he shud say aft wadever his done..haha!oh well...tats fine..used to it liao ma..sometyms makes me tink tat im horrible..y am i so unreasonable leh?urgh!sandra chang,get use to it,and yew'll be fine=)

okie la.now needa eat lunch den go school liao..sian!school..haix..oh well.........

jr precious moments at 8:44 PM

@8:33 PM

24feb2011

dint drink soup..ate choc muffin and half a cookie marica baked..today she baked again..so stole another 2=)hehe!!anw,dint drink soup=(tink tink tink den now 330 liao..beta not drink liao.den daddy msg me on skype..ask me e advantages of havin an iphone and all tat.den say its difficult to get me e iphone for george to bring it over for me..but for my bdae definitely can..but i mean my bdae wor....august..now feb nia!!another half a year..sian..i tink i come back in june,work one month oso can get myself one b4 august liao lo..even faster den wait for em to get for me lo..idiot!

anw,im starvin and my chest still pain until now lo..haven stop painnin for a sec at all lo..how?am i dyin soon??will i just slp and nv wake up at all?if i do,its lyk i spend my entire life in school studyin..OMG!practically wasted my entire life lo..haix..oh well..hopefully e chest pains will go away....and cannot tink tat im hunngry!tomolo b4 go sch den drink den eat bread=)yum yum!!!=)

jr precious moments at 8:33 PM

@10:46 AM

23feb2011

pom pom,vacuum and washed most of e stuffs=)den watched drama lo..den tok to mel..tok rubbish wif mel..den awhile lovell jiu call me liao.he called me at around 1ish b4 2=)hehe=)he got fb me when he was dunno doin wad his his bro lo=)nice nice=)reply very quick somemore..haha!=)

we toked over skype..tok quite abit..but tat retard keep watchin his korean drama lo..watch watch watch!idiot!!haha!=)hmm.i cant rmb wad we toked about la.haha!but we tok den he jealous i tok to mel again.haha!=)we toked bout e ideal date!haha!den he tok bout his bro fren bought hse liao.den make him wan to too.make him tink bout his future..den toked bout car license.today e car place called me and asked me if wanna book me for a automatic class or not..haha!=)den i actually no need lo!!!wth!!wad was i tinkin!!!!i shud say yes la!alan oso start learnin liao.den i shud totally too la!!den lovell oso haven learn yet..but i tink i will get license faster and earlier den lovell if i learn ba=)haha!

okie.den awhile more jiu cook liao.cooked my pasta again=)everytym oso eat pasta.haha!=)i tink i eat finish pasta,den gonna eat porridge for a few days liao=)too fat now le.haha! =)den i cook lovell watch his drama again!den i ask him go slp he dowan lo!!!!!we toked awhile more,den he jiu orh orh b4 i eat my pasta if i nv rmb wrongly..haha!=)hmm.pasta was okie..finished all today=)hehe=)he slp,i eat den watch drama lo.eat finish den i damn tired liao sia!!den i fell aslp!!about to fall aslp tat tym,mummy called me lo!wth la!!!she called at spore 6am la!!dunno she slp wake up liao or haven even slp lo!!!tat alan dowan to call home la!!urgh!!idiot!!den he dont call home,mummy will keep buggin me!bug me until my chest damn pain lo!='(my chest from ytd very tight until now lo!ytd is pain awhile nia..now is pain for afew hrs liao sia!lyk damn tight lo!keeps twitchin='(i damn scared ltr suddenly heart attack sia!wah!!but pain..haix.

den lovell woke up for abit at 10 den fell back aslp liao.haha!=)den apparently he gt a fone call so,skype was paused!i doubt he dint pick up e fone tats y im still on hold on skype!he must be still slpin wifout answerin e fone la!scarly is e work place call him sia!!den he nv pick up!!!he really is pig pig lo!haha!hmm.i now hungry again liao lo..dunno wanna drink e soup anot leh..shud i??i really wan to though..but..dunno leh..chest damn tight..den stomach oso hungry den ya lo..

hmm..today,lovell keeps tokin bout e future..makes me damn wanna have a future wif him lo.we toked bout e car.he say he no motivation to learn car cos he no car to drive.but i learn liao can drive daddys car..so okie..den i rmb daddy got say b4 if he got license,den we can drive his car out lo=)so,its okie wad..he shud have motivation...den tomolo i needa call e car place again to ask her to book me in for an automatic class..haha!=)but i kinda scared leh..i mean lyk new environment.den i damn scared de lo..in spore i not so scared lo.cos i noe all e road and all tat..and guess wad?lovell is scared too!haha!=)and,he is proper tinkin bout our future lo..lyk still so long and his tinkin bout it lo...haha!=)i really wan to have him in my future!muackx!!i love yew hun!!

sian..dunno y my chest still twitchin lo..twitch for a couple of hrs liao sia!nv stop at all leh..keeps twitchin all at e tym..nv stop!sian!!pain='(how sia...and,im gonna go drink soup now.im hungry..haha!=)muackx!!

jr precious moments at 10:46 AM

Wednesday, February 23, 2011 @10:57 PM

23feb2011

was wantin to wait for lovell to wake up de.but fell aslp.fell aslp wif lights on and unlocked door..dint feel good at all.slp wif lights on and all.den woke up at spore 1ish..lovell called me.say he gng pom pom den go out to killiney road liao..den i dunno y i damn tired really cant move and all at all!!!=(den,continue slp lo.den cant tok to lovell at all lo.haix.so sad!!den i woke up at spore 4ish,he home from work place liao.den he gng back to slp..den i see he go back slp den i go back slp too lo..den he woke up at 6ish eat dinner.but i was really damn tired!couldnt wake up at all.haix.so wake up on and off to reply to lovell.really wanna tok to him lo.haix.but,i really cant get up=(its cos i dint off light to slp la!!urgh!den he eat jiu high wif bro liao..den i not continue slp lo..den finally wake up at here 2pm=)hehe!but by den he nv reply me liao=(so,i tok to jasmine lo..

she needed a favour from me..she wanna buy somethin den send over my address den i post back to her.but i ask her to get george to bring back..hmm.but in e end,dunno y she say only can post to US..so,nv make liao lo..yupps..den now my head oso pain.sian!dunno y lo..from last nite pain until now liao..sian!nvm..den watch dram lo..wait for heater den ltr go pom pom..i suppose lovell 2ish den can tok to me de..so,can go pom pom and wash up evrythin den tok to him=)hehe=)

jr precious moments at 10:57 PM

@7:51 AM

22feb2011

i shudve got on e plane today..but oh well..wadever..toked to lovell on e fone when i woke up=)very happy!!tok to him until 15mins b4 i leave home for workshop..his bro is back den they gonna high so lovell kup me to pei bro lo..den,i went to school,went dere just on tym..den simona was even later den me..so okie la.workshop was...quiet.haha!=)nobody toked..so ya..den i got to fb lovell all e way durin workshop!!

its been ages since i toked to him lyk tat in school on fb!!!definitely not tis term..it was last term tat we've toked lyk tat..tis term,when im in school,he usually would be workin or out wif bro and clique..so,yea..really happy when he replied me on fb when i got to school!!=)we toked toked toked till i ended workshop=)but,when i went for lecture,he reply slower liao..so,i rot lo..use fb to look look look at ppls profile to pass tat one hr lo..dunno wad he was doin oso.he was at home,not out till i ended school.he called me when i was walkin home.smoked on my way back..i got home den he went out..yupps.he went out,den dint fb him liao.cos he dint reply..so i use com awhile jiu slp le..b4 i slpt,jasmine fb me say needa tok to me bout somethin on skype tonite..den,marica came to knock on my door..she baked loads of cookies and muffins.den treated me to some!!wow!!it was really yummy!!very very yummy!=)had flabby or wadever tats called,cookies and choc muffin!!nice!!really good!!well,came back room,den fell aslp le..den woke up at here around6ish..lovell come home le..den he skype me.

he went to carls jr to eat and slack den come home liao..den we skyped!!so happy!=)skyped for hrs!!damn happy la!tok tok tok,toked bout our future again!sweet and happy=)he naughty naughty..den already 4 am liao.tym pass sooo fast lo..den i ask him go slp,he dowan!!he wanna pei me tok..so we continue tok tok tok.den i cooked pasta for dinner=)he watch his korean drama..well,my pasta was a success=)but i couldnt finish it..dunno y..haha!=)so left half of it for supper..tok tok tok to lovell,den his eye pain!all red lo!idiot!den made him go wash his eye..den okie liao=)den tok abit more until spore6ish den he went to slp lo..awhile ltr,mummy called me!

make me ask alan to call home.but he dowan.so called candace to get him.tok to him ask him y dont call home?den he say he dowan den kup my call liao..fucker!asshole!!urgh!den mummy called again to kp me.told her to leave him as he is..he okie liao will call home de..den my mom say if he dont call home by today,den mummy daddy dont ren him liao!wtf la!ask me tell him he dont call home,den dont bother callin home anymore.den ask me ask him holiday tat tym,wan go back spore or go back to hk or dont even wanna come back anymore.if he dowan to come back anymore,daddy mummy is gonna take back e money from e government..wtf la!make until so serious!i dont even noe wad alan tinkin bout la!den mummy called me again..

called me say say say..e more he say e more i dulan.they dunno alan not happy den almost wanna run away from school and all tat.so he dont tok to em obviously is he not happy wif em la!but i cant tell em.if not they go ask den alan wont tok to dar anymore..haix.tats y make me more dulan only lo..den say say say,she say is cos of me den make until lyk tat lo!!tat day alan kup e call is cos me!wtf la!everythin oso blame me liao lo!fuck sia!!urgh!den she still wanna tok tok tok tok tok..den i buay tahan den went down to smoke den she tok tok tok tok!!urgh!cant stand bro sia!urgh!i really dunno wad she tinkin lo!!wtf la!!

now damn emo liao lo.come up,realised skype kup wif lovell liao='(haix..he lost connection or smth ba..so kup='(today actually very happy de lo,cos lovell pei me almost whole day de lo..den,alan,mummy daddy hafta fuckin ruin my day!urgh!hate it so much..y am i e one who is always blamed for everythin?everythin oso say i start de.haix.oh well......fine!!im used to it liao..haix..now i miss lovell so much!when get to see him slp at least i feel peaceful..but,now,he oso kup liao..i oso dunno who to tok to lo..sian..now head oso damn pain liao.urgh!!!!!wahhhh!!!!!!i miss lovell lim!i really do miss yew alot hun!='(i shudve touched down in spore now already de lo!!den go to lovells hse to look for him to give him e surprise de lo..haix!!really wanted to see his reaction de lo!haix..really hoped i was next to him now lo!haix=(i miss lovell lim!i love yew hun!!='(i need yew so badly!='(

jr precious moments at 7:51 AM

Tuesday, February 22, 2011 @1:21 PM

22feb2011

yay.just tidied up my room abit..tomolo aft school den proper tidy my room clean!!!=)got so many tings to wash lo.sian!needa wipe table,clean mirror,wash e sink,clean cupboard,vacuum floor,do e bed,throw rubbish,wash clothes,everythin..sian..

hmm.lovel orh orh liao..den ltr will go out wif bro when bro end his course tingy at 5.so he maybe around 6ish 7 go out ba..today,i oso dint noe wad tym he went out,wad he did,where he go..hmm.sometyms,some tings do change change aft tym..hopefully it wudnt change anymore at tis rate..if not soon we wouldnt even tok for weeks already..i really hope tat day wouldn come at all..haix..

jr precious moments at 1:21 PM

@12:29 PM

22feb2011

lovell woke up at around half 10..den called me and we toked!!we toked!!!=)really toked!!=)so happy!!!very long since we toked!!=)we toked for an hour or so..den he ask me go slp liao=(hmm.we nv tok as much as we used to anymore..now,its either i ask him to slp or he ask me to slp..but,haix.since he lyk dowan tok to me den i say i go slp lo..i slpt wif him just now so i can tok to him now..told him still got 14ish hrs b4 i can tok to him,cos he gng out wif bro den high-in wif bro oso..so,ya..but he actually said tat its okie..tats more den half a day cannot tok to him but he say okie..den okie lo...so i not say i go and slp le lo..tats fine..he called me on skype,den video call me..den i pretend slp lo.den watch drama while he slp lo..now,hes aslp liao..tink im gonna watch abit more drama awhile more den slp for 4 hrs den wake up go school lo..yupps.oh well...

jr precious moments at 12:29 PM

@10:25 AM

21feb2011

woke up wif a call from daddy..scare e hell outta me!he noe bout e tickets liao!OMG!!i changed e email,dint change e fone number ting!!den they sent a text to daddy when i book e tickets!!wah!!den i dont dare to slp already!kept tinkin and tinkin and tinkin.and i've decided to tell daddy bout it..so called him he called back but i dont dare to say..so kup lo..den webcam oso,i oso dint tell him..shag!finally until e 3rd call den i told him say is mel and e rest bought it for me as e present for lovell.den daddy ask me den how?den i say i tomolo flyin back lo.den he say cannot!haix.he die die oso say cannot lo..urgh!but oh well..aft kup,he fuckin called george den say her..den he called lovell too!!damn him!is lyk lovell noe nth bout it,den for fuck tell him to disappoint him for no reason?haix..sadded.really am..den lovell called me and asked me lo.so..ya..

den we went pom pom one by one den prepare to go out liao lo..we went to e pub to eat again..carbonara again.hehe=)hmm.den george called and say dad called her again.urgh!i hate it when he have my frens number!haix.so marfan.cannot fan me and alan den fan em..dots.okie me and candace ordered large portion but it came as small.but lucky though..finished and was damn full liao..eat finish jiu left liao cos alan and candace needa rush train..den went to mall to change tings,den walk around.den went bacnk withdraw money again.den come home liao lo.den came up all sit on bed lyk retards.den ate ice cream.den we were so quiet while eatin!so funny!all so into eatin!!pigs!!hhaah!=)eat finish alan make his salmon sandwich to bring on train to eat.den they packed and everythin den they left='(send em down='(they left,den lovell called me while i was smokin..lite lite lite...dunno y tis few days smoke will lyk tat lo..weird,but nice so tats fine=)hehe=)

hmm.dint get to tok to lovell much today.he went out wif bro and frens dunno went where..he dont say den i dont ask lo.yupps.and he forgot to call jasmine!!idiot!!!everytym forgot help me do wad he said okie de lo!!anw,came up den toked to yuting and took back my money.dint get full refund.only got e tex and everythin.e rest all gone='(300++gone lo.haix.couldve bought iphone4 when top up another 200 lo.idiot!but oh well..daddy dont let den too bad=(den come back room jiu tok to mummy but i was so damn tired so i cant be bothered to tok to em.so i tell em i wanna slp liao..aft kup,watched abit drama,den lovell call me liao.happy happy!=)hehe=)den tok to him.he naughty naughty!!haha!he smoked in his room somemore!!!ltr e whole room sure smell de lo!haha!he scare me lo!i tot he climb outta e window to smoke!he lie to me la!he high den climb outta window!scare me la!!urgh!asshole.anw,tok to him awhile we both jiu slp liao lo..slpt together today!!hehe=)but cos just now got e squeeky sound so i mute e speakers...den fell back aslp without unmuting..den e call kup='(den he called me again den obviously cos its mute so, i dint answer=(sadded=(

i woke up at 130 la!!!slpt from around 7ish to 130 lo!6hrs lo!dunno tonight how slp sia!urgh!anw,woke up had 2 salmon sandwich which alan left me=)yum yum..hmm.i miss hun so much!lyk really alot alot..i really wan an iphone now wor..how?buy?yes no,no yes?which??

hmm.i miss hun alot now='(lyk really alot lo.haix.hmm.i realised me and lovell dont tok as much tis few days at all lo..lyk we nv get to tok anymore.he got his life-bro and frens,me-i dunno..so we kinda dont get to tok much..but i tink tis will last till i come back..cos his bro dont hafta book in for a month already..so,i suppose tis will be lyk tat for e comin month..oh well.i love yew hun..really do..muuackx!!

jr precious moments at 10:25 AM

Monday, February 21, 2011 @9:12 AM

20feb2011

woke up e first ting i did was to call my darlin and tok to him!!he dint call me='(oh well..den tok to him..tok to him liao den i jiu wake up den he go prepare liao cos he needa prepare go out dinner wif dad liao..den we watch ghost whisperer den dilly dally abit lo..haha!den went to shower at 11.hehe!=)one by one shower,den alan made garlic bread=)hehe.eat eat eat..den added smoked salmon to it=)hehe.eat eat eat..den eat finish den watch abit more ghost whisperer den went out to e mall..went walk walk walk=)bought quite abit of stuffs wif candace=)hehe.kinda spent alot of money today la!den finally went to tesco to get groceries for tonite=)hehe=)

den aft all tat,jiu come home liao lo.smoked on e way back.den met elsa on e way back..den she look at e cig den lyk pretty shocked or smth.her eyes dint leave e cig.hahah!=)den i smoke lo.den alan damn wicked la!dowan to wait for me finish smoke at al!!damn him!!so i smoked lyk machine la!damn fast!!but still alan dowan wait for me='(sadded.den he went up!but candace came back down to help me carry e tesco tings..den i see she come down,den smoke very quickly again.by e tym i finish smokin,i cant walk e stairs liao.even more cant walk den ytd!!hahah!=)in pretty lyk tat short feelin though=)hehehehhe=)

came up slacked..alan and can watch ghost whisperer.den went to yuting room to do somethings..den done liao,den i watch ming zhong den we kinda lyk fell aslp!den yay!!!lovell called me=)he had fish and co wif dad.den got ang pao.den went out play lan wif bro den came home.and surprisinly,lovell not high!!!wow!!!i expected him to be high!be he wasnt!!!!!=)den toked to him on e fone while candace slp and bro watch movie..feel so tired liao den marica come knock on e door ask play monopoly liao!we haven even cooked yet la!!urgh!so we start cook and played..lucky i say i play as a grp wif alan.cos i cant be bothered and i dont lyk monopoly at all!anw,we cook cook cook den play play play..den in e end only alan played me and can come back room tok to our bf=)hehehe=)but i did e dishes today!!!!!so guai rite?!

anw,called hun den hun was lyk cryin='(dunno why he suddenly cry until lyk tat lo..haix.make my heart break on e spot lo..den i dunno wad to say oso..den he say he tired liao wan slp le.so kup lo=(in e end he dint slp!he fb me and everythin!den tell me he sometyms feel very lonely..den make me tink,maybe he shud find another girl to pei him when he is lyk today so bored..i felt really bad..i dont wan him to be so lonely..i dont wanna be so selfish..i wan him to be happy.i noe wad he'll say.he wont be happy if he is doin tat..but if he really had another girl to hug and stuffs,he wudnt feel lyk tat anymore..i really meant wad i said..i wan him..i wan him in my life but not lyk him being so lonely and everythin...he kinda debated wif me over fb over tis issue..until around 7 b4 he went to bed..he was already so tired den still pei me tok.although its not a happy topic,im still happy tat i toked to him=)

aft he slp,alan finish his monopoly game,den alan dyed his hair blond den me and can watch ghost whisperer lo..yupps.den we both had ice cream!!yum yum!!!taste soo yummy although i had it lyk 2 days ago and tat i shudnt be eatin it now.haha!=)but oh well.i wanna eat!!i today very guai lo.i only smoked 1 cig=)hun,im a good girl!!=)hun,i promise we will work hard towards our dreams and one day im sure it will come true,alrite?i really hope one day it'll come true!!=)okie?=)we shall work hard alrite??nth will come between us!!i promise=)muuackx!!!i love yew!!

i really do.i wanna have a future wif yew.i dunno y im tinkin tis.but i really wish i can be leavin wif lovell..slpin on e same bed every nite,wakin up together,lookin at each other every mornin e first ting we wake up,gng out to work together,eatin together,come home together,eat and cook together,wash up and watch kang xi together on e bed,den go to bed together=)it makes me smile when im tinkin all bout it!its really somethin i wan to happen!i really wan it to happen!!i love yew hun!=)muuackx!!

jr precious moments at 9:12 AM

Sunday, February 20, 2011 @8:40 PM

20feb2011

was really tired,went to bed around2ish den fell aslp straight!!!!!den i cant rmb..i proper slpt all e way till i woke up!=)bro and candace were awake liao..den they whispered den i wake up liao.sian!damn tired lo.even now,my brain oso lyk half dead.but im tahan-in..oh well..

woke up,lovell nv call me='(so i call him lo=(sadded=(he met dad.they went nexx e new shoppin mall..he got ang bao again!cos his bdae!!damn him!!!so good!!family ting again!!den i not dere again.sian!!!='(haix......i miss him so much,so so so so so so so much='(

jr precious moments at 8:40 PM

@9:16 AM

19feb2011

slpt at almost 10am tis mornin..pei lovell tok tok tok=)so happy!!get to tok to him on his bdae for quite abit=)hmm.but someone was a pig pig den fell aslp again.haha!=)den i jiu go slp lo..den he awhile jiu wake up go eat dinner wif mummy bro and jasmine.they had bdae cake first liao den go out..he had crab for dinner.haha!=)sian.im dere to have dinner wif him..such a nice family tingy and im not dere='(

anw,he finish dinner jiu go home den went to katong meet e rest of em to sing..i dunno wad happened dere.only noe they played wif e cake and all..den ya.they sang at 11..den sing until 2ba..cos 3hrs..haha!anw,me,can and bro went to e pub to have food again=)hehe.carbonara as usual=)den we all damn full jiu sit dere until 5 den go..went walk walk at e mall.den went to tesco to get e groceries for dinner=)hehe.den got 75meatballs!!wah!!went back.smoked,den dunno why aft smoke,den suddenly head damn light..couldnt walk up e stairs properly la!damn light..but i kinda lyked tat feelin.very relaxed=)hehe=)i lyk tat...

anw,came home,den lovell fb me say he on his way in e cab home.he went home at around 230.den jiu disappear liao=(he and bro high again lo..haix.sian...miss him damn much.okie,den we cooked rice,meatballs,veg and steam egg.normal food again lo..cooked 18meatballs and alan ate 11 himself!!!OMG la!!kong bu lo!!haha!=)dinner was alrite except e egg not enuff taste..anw,we watched e movie yours,mine and ours while eatin dinner..hehe=)den lovell oso watchin movie wif bro..anw,we eat finish liao den slack around.den i started lookin for my keys!!!cant find it lo!!den george call me.but,i tot is lovell call.so i called lovell.den apparently is not lovell call de.he sound damn fierce when he pick up e fone lo.scare me..so,called george den tok to her bout her and zul and all tat..hmm.tok to her liao jiu continue lookin for my keys.den lovell called!yay!!so happy la!its lyk finally la!!=)hehe=)hmm.den finally found my keys!its in my pants!hehe.so went down to smoke lo.den yi bian smoke yi bian tok to my darlin!=)

i miss him so damn much la!lyk really alot alot=(haix..i really wanna be wif him!!i forgot to ask him wad was his birthday wish!!haha!=)i wish i wish i wish i can be wif lovell lim.next to him,on his bed,huggin him,kissin him,tokin to him..i miss yew!='(

anw,tok to him in e kitchen until e fone kup den he jiu go to slp liao.miss him so much..feel so damn bad tat i cant celebrate his birthday wif him!haix.i hate tings bein lyk tat!i wan him!!haix..oh well..if only its my birthday den i can have a birthday wish den i wud wish tat im wif lovell lim!!muackkx!i love yew!!=)we fb till he fell aslp=)aft he fell aslp den me bro and candace watch mr bean lo.all damn sian la!watch dunno how many million tyms liao!!....den watch ghost whisperer too...

now,im so tired..so so so so tired..i really miss lovell lim!how i wish i wake up den im lyk next to lovell lim,in his room and on his bed liao lo..i tink im gonna go to bed liao ba..tomolo sunday everythin close damn early!!so hafta go out earlier to buy groceries to cook..yupps..

nitex hun!sweet dreams!i love yew!hope yew enjoyed ur 20th birthday!!=)i love yew=)

jr precious moments at 9:16 AM

Saturday, February 19, 2011 @4:31 PM

19feb2011

yay!!!!!!hun woke up at around 2ish den pei me tok until now!!!!=)so happy!!!!but he lyk damn sian lo.sian until he went out to get cigs..den,he oso play wif e cats=)hehe=)so cute=)hmm.den he oso very naugthy today..hahah!=)he went home aft smokin den tok tok tok den now,he bcome pig pig again!!pig pig!!hahahah=)but im very happy!!!today get to tok to lovell so long=)hehehe=)happy birthday hun!!!muuuackx!!!thanks for pei-in me tok today!!=)i love yew!!=)

jr precious moments at 4:31 PM

@1:42 PM

19feb2011

yay!!hun is awake and ive spoken to him!!!happy happy!!!!!!=)

now he is eating wif mummy bro and jasmine le ba..muuuaccckkkkxxx!=)

jr precious moments at 1:42 PM

@1:22 PM

19feb2011.happy birthday hun!!=)

lovell woke up early today pei me tok!!!!im sooo happy!!!!happy birthday hun!!!hope yew have a great one!!!i love yew hun!!!!!=)muuuackx!!i love yew!!!!!

anw,lovell wake up to wash hair cos his head damn itchy!hahah!=)den we tok tok tok for abit den he fell back aslp.as usual aft our usual doins...yupps.hmm.he slp liao den just good george msn me.so tok to her..den she ask me call her..so called her den tok to her lo..tok for quite some tym.toked bout her trip here and all tat..yupps.den tok tok tok,kup liao,lovell went off line.dunno why='(haix...hmm..maybe cos he went smokin wif bro le ba..dunno he still in bed or awake le..hmm..dunno leh..i miss him so much..lyk really alot..

anw,really wish he have a good birthday today!!!he celebratin bdae wif mom,bro jasmine for dinner first.den meetin his clique go teo heng to sing at 11..den i suppose aft tat,he sure high again de..so doubt will speak to him again liao..i tink i needa go slp now.cos ltr bro and can reachin here at around 2ish 3..so beta go to bed now le la..i miss lovell lim so much='(

jr precious moments at 1:22 PM

@6:03 AM

18feb2011

hmm.really damn sian today.wake up tot will receive somethin from lovell.but,nopes nth..haix.dint even tok to him aft i woke him up,den he went high wif bro as expected..den call me say he pei bro.so ya.nv tok lo.den i say i go slp so he no needa pei me lo.yupps.somehow heart kinda twitched..so broke..dunno for fuck oso.sometyms it makes me wonder y he can do anythin for his frens..sometyms put his frens b4 everythin.i noe me too.but im already changed i suppose?i dont tink i put frens b4 him anymore le ba..dunno la.just alittle i dunno la..ya.

tried to slp den woke up at 10ish..den see got nth from him heart twitched again.lyk wad i said,lovell did change for a couple of days when he first read my blog..he sent me wad he was doin and everythin.but i knew it wudnt last long.and true enuff,it dint last..its expected though..but tats fine.i aint wanna be so ba dao.i needa stop being so childish.

oh well.since nth to do.so stayed in bed till 4 which is spore 12 den text lovell and fb him say happy birthday.dint wanna call him and disturb him.so text and fb him only.yupps.hope he did enjoy himself lo.im so sorrie tat i cant celebrate his 20th birthday wif him..im so sorrie.well,he called me in a bit den i wished him happy birthday,jiu kup le lo..ya..den he play wif bro and fren,so,i not tok to mel and mummy lo.

skype mummy.mummy ask me y i so sian sian.den ask me was i busy tokin to lovell.den i say no.den she see me answer her tat tym lyk wan cry liao so nv continue ask lo.den daddy still wanna ask ask ask.den mummy quickly change topic..dots..oh well.tok to mummy den damn no mood so she say dont tok liao lo.so i chat wif mel lo..chat chat chat..chat bout their clique de gossip..noe quite abit of surprisin news..yupps

chat for around 2 hrs den lovell came home.he webcam me.den lyk nth to say again..he lyk everytym go out come back jiu say miss me and all tat.i dunno how i feel.lyk say already lyk for e sake of sayin?i dunno.just tat he already went out to play liao den come home say all these.den lyk yew noe..dunno la.den he doesnt seem to lyk it when i tok to mel.so i dint reply him aft abit.aft awhile we did e usual tings except tat little bit different ting..

aft tat,he jiu slp le.lyk usual..aft he slp i jiu go pom pom lo..pom pom le come out,toked to mel again lo..i seem to tok to mel more den to lovell lo.haix.sometyms makes me feel tat lovell already dont have anythin to tok to me already.lyk he seems happier when hes wif his frens,bro and all lo.haix.dunno leh..haix...nvm..he happy can liao..he happy i happy le lo..mel and ali plannin lovells bdae tomolo.den ask me everythin..den,make me feel damn bad..they all can celebrate bdae wif him den i cant..haix.den mel help me tink how to raise e money to lemme come back.but he can only lend me money next week..haix.by next week oso too late liao..haix.so cannot come back lo.haix..why dint i work for e past few months?if i worked e past few months now already got money to fly back liao lo.no needa be askin ppl to lend me money lemme come back lo!!haix..sian!!i really wish to come back lo.haix.how?take e risk?use my own card to buy or wad?yes or no?shud i or shud i not?sian......

jr precious moments at 6:03 AM

Friday, February 18, 2011 @6:47 PM

18feb2011

so cant slp at all....lyk wasted my tym on e bed only..ah well...

daddy called asked if i called home.but i dint so kup liao.yupps.hmm.its really early now..dunno wad to do too.apparently lovell dint send me anythin on fb.so suppose he is busy and out ba..so ya..in tat case dont disturb him liao lo..just...ya..wadever..

jr precious moments at 6:47 PM

@1:58 PM

18feb2011

breakdown.

im startin to noe how mummy feels now as i get older..shes always keepin tings in her heart and not being able to tell anyone.now i really do noe how mummy feels..maybe wadever mummy had said to me is rite..she is rite.either hide it all in myself and well hiden or dont even have it..

fuck sake.SANDRA CHANG!!fuckin hell,stop all these emotions!!!!!!STOP!

as tym passes,i dont noe wad i use to really know of anymore..i really dont..not anymore..its all question marks now..why and wad am i doin all these for?i dunno.i really dont..i suppose i really hafta figure it out.

jr precious moments at 1:58 PM

@1:42 PM

18feb2011

hmm.i tink his high..but im not gonna ask!!SANDRA CHANG! CANNOT ASK!!! YEW CANNOT GUAN!!!!

jr precious moments at 1:42 PM

@1:37 PM

18feb2011

hmm.spent quiet times alone again..start watchin ming zhong again..ya.really damn bored.haix.

dunno y my gastric start again liao=(haix..tats fine.can tahan,anw,dint wake lovell up at 11.let lovell slp in longer till 12 den started wakin him up.but he cant wake up.only woke up at 120..hmm.no matter how i wake him he oso dont wake up.until e end gastric damn pain le..so ya..anw,dunno y but suddenly he jump up and disappeared..den heard he tokin to someone outside,so,e first person was leon,but i dint hear door bell so tot maybe it was leonard..hmm,dint get to tok to lovell but i kup skype le..i tot was leon so it means he will high.but even bro oso will high.so doesnt matter..

i suppose oso wont tok to him today and tonight le..hopes he enjoys himselves tonite and tomolo ba..ya..i dunno wad to say and i noe i cant say it here anymore.so i'll just hafta keep it in my heart le ba..its fine..hmm.now i cant go to bed le.but oh well...

jr precious moments at 1:37 PM

@8:14 AM

17feb2011

okie.toked to mel for hrs!!bout everythin=)den apparently he saw some pics which lovell would kill me if he saw.doubt he saw it yet cos he haven scold me yet.haha!=)hmm.tok to mel until around 8pm.den my chicken ready liao.den ate at around830..den i finally got my chicken out and cook maggie wif sausage and eggs=)hehe=)yum yum.den sat down eat..mel jiu went to slp le.den lovell jiu gang gang hao come back den call me=)he go pom pom..dunno y he lyk emo emo lyk tat de leh..haix.

i dont understand y he everytym come home liao den will down down de.keep sayin he feel bad and everythin nv pei me.hmm.i dunno how to say lo..he already went out to have fun liao ma.den he come home den down down de..hmm..make me feel lyk he come home,den he damn sian lyk tat.den i feel bad..den keep sayin feel bad and all.but,already go out liao ma..den no point keep sayin it wad..get wad i mean?nvm.i oso dunno wad i sayin.retarded....

anw,tok to him abit.den he lyk sian sian de.make me oso sian sian leh..dunno how to tok to him make him not sian oso.haix..den tried to tok to him lo..yi kai shi he down down de.den aft tat tat wormy ...... liao den start le lo..haha!=)den ya.aft tat he went to bed le lo.see him really lyk tired lyk tat.haix.he high these few days,today oso.den tomolo hes bro celebrate his bdae wif him..so go club ba..which means high high high..i oso wann join him..hmm.so bad cannot celebrate his bdae wif him.haix..sian!i damn sian sia!!!urgh!!!haix..

now lookin at him slp,i really wanna have tings e way i wan it to be...but y does tings nv go accordin to how it is suppose to?!urgh!!!i hate it!!really hate it!!urgh!!=(

jr precious moments at 8:14 AM

@3:45 AM

17feb2011

woke up pretty early e first round.but lovell e cam was already off.so,i continued to slp lo..until i wake up tat tym,lovell already go out le=(den e fuckin fire alarm went off every 5 secs!!urgh!!so annoyin la!!lovell went bugis meet mummy shoppin wif her..so sweet rite?haha=)okie.i was really tired..so skipped mornin workshop.but,i actually can fall aslp wif e alarm lo!hmm.lovell met mom at bugis den went crystal jade to eat dinner den he say he eat until lyk ball lyk tat.haha!den he bought 2 levis jeans.nice..so cute rite?lovell lim and mummy go shoppin.haha!im sure i wud love to do tat wif my mummy provided we dont quarrel..hehe=)

okie.den he told me bout got a girl ask him do modellin.den 2 girls ask him help test top,den gt a couple go into e same fittin room.den dunno got weird sounds come out anot.hahahah!=)den i woke up at 1 den prepare go sch..den lovell hafta fb me say leon gng to bugis pick him and his mummy up and send her home den they gng out..oh well..nvm..den i went to school earlier lo.meet gemma,simona and kelsey at cafe.den go class early to tok tok tok.lesson start,lecturer damn guailan.sttitude lyk fuck.wadever..den,damn shag in class.fb aunt..den toked to some random person who added me on msn lyk ages ago..so tok tok tok...oso lyk damn shag,den dowan tok to him liao.den come outta class damn sian den smoke smoke smoke smoke smoke lo..den went to tesco den bought tings den went back room den ya.

reach home den jasmine added me on skype den skype her lo..den tok tok tok to her for an hr plus..den,called mummy tok oso..another hr..den start makin my chicken ting.den tok to mel all e way lo..tok bout everythin..den lovell out wif leon ma.so,nvm lo.watch drama and tok to mel lo..yupps..now marinating chicken awhile more jiu go put in oven.yupps.haha!=)den eat maggie again ba..i lazy cook rice.haha!=)yupps.oh well.sian..nth to do..but,nvm..its fine..

i now desperate lose all e weight again.tok to mel bout it.den is lyk i wanna be lyk yiling la!!!!!really!!!!OMG!!!ahhh!!!

jr precious moments at 3:45 AM

Thursday, February 17, 2011 @11:17 AM

17feb2011

yay!!im so happy now!!!!!lovell woke up to wash his hair cos very itchy..so smelly la!hahahden he pei me tok all e way until now lo!!i so happy la!!!from 9ish tok until now 11 lo!!heheheh=)tok tok tok tok tok=)today is really tok tok tok tok tok only=)hehe=)happy happy!no longer down liao=)hehe=)im gonna smile to slp le!hehehe=)

now tat pig pig has fallen aslp when i went to pee pee=)haha!!pig pig!!!thanks hun for makin e effort to wake up and tok to me!!thanks very much!muuackx! i love yew!i really do!!!=)

jr precious moments at 11:17 AM

@7:46 AM

17feb2011

was down a couple of hrs ago b4 lovell slp.but now he wake up liao,everythins gone!not down anymore=)he made e effort to wake up and tok to me..im so happy!thanks hun=)i miss him so much!

but ive to ruin everythin by tellin him i receive somethin from someone.which i den realised was from marco.i dint expect marco to send 12roses to me for valentines..thanks and sorrie..i wasn in on tat day so dint receive it yet..but he shudnt have spent tat money..hmm.i tink lovell must be abit jealous or angry bout it le ba..im sorrie..

hun,i accept e gift from him doesn mean i accept him.in my heart,deres only yew..i love yew hun..i really do=)

jr precious moments at 7:46 AM

@7:40 AM

my horrible dream='(

i had tis dream on e mornin of 16feb2011=(

lovell and i had dinner at his place.den spend tym watchin kangxi in his room wif him..really loved it alot!!den,went home tt nite aft watchin kang xi and er ren shi jie-in cos next day got sch.reach school,i was late..so sat at e back of e row in parade square..apparently we were in e same class too.so,i tried lookin for lovell and couldn find him so i tot maybe cos last nite i left late so he couldnt wake up tis mornin den late for school lo.so texted him..den school past den i oso dint see him around.he dint text me too=(i waited and waited but nth from him='(

school ended..i went opp sch wif mel,ping ping and james to slack.mel and ping ping went to mac to buy mac for me and james.i waited for lovell to appear.but he nv did.when mel and ping ping came back,they asked me where lovell is.but non of us noe..haix='(hmm.they asked me..but,i have no idea at all='(aft eatin,lovell still haven texted=(he kinda disappeared=(i cried so badly,my heart really hurt and it woke me up from my slp='(i felt really scared when i woke up..really was=(

i hate tis kinda dream='(

jr precious moments at 7:40 AM

@7:05 AM

16feb2011

hmm.toked to melvin and jasmine..proper told mel alot of tings..felt abit down..hmm.lovell said somethin today..he say he really bored cos everyday he stay home den lyk nv achieve anythin..he was all agitated and everythin bout stayin home.it kinda made me feel bad and started tinkin bout it.given his character,he wudnt stand stayin at home to face his com other den gamin and slpin..i feel bad..wad i dint wan in e beginnin of tis relationship happened..i dont wanna lock him down.which obviously i did..im sorrie.his been home just facin laptop for almost a month already..sorrie.i dint mean to de.i really do understand how he feels..just lyk how i feel..ive been so useless for e pass 10months.i haven done anythin too.just stay in my room.ive spoken to mel bout it.den he say i shud do somethin bout it..haha.i dunno leh.i feel lyk ive lost myself already..we toked bout e yl ting too.den bout lovell high-in..

mumy called when i was about to pom pom.toked to her for abit..den lovell called me on my fone.e moment he tok to me,i noe he high liao.hmm.i dunno how i feel at e moment.but down for sure.i mean he use to tell me if he was gonna be high..but tis few days,he kinda lyk hide it from me liao..ever since he say he wanna stop it den ask me help him,hes been tryin to hide it from me when he high..hmm.make me feel damn bad bout it..i mean,i rather he tell me he wanna or he is rather den hidin it from me..makes me feel lyk i dont allow him to do it..i really wan him to be happy and do wad he wanna do..i dont wan him to be hidin when he wanna do tings.tats just gonna be terrible to be controlled when he nv lyked to be controlled.

im sorrie hun,i shudnt be so attitude just now when yew tok to me.im sorrie.just tat i feel really bad bout now yew do tings hafta hide from me.if i dont guan yew so much,den yew wudnt hafta hide from me le.i promise i wont guan yew,control yew and stick to yew too much from now on..muackxz!!i love yew.i just wan lovell to be happy..as long as his happy,even if he hafta give me up,im fine wif it as long as his happy wif his life rather den now lyk tat..

jr precious moments at 7:05 AM

Wednesday, February 16, 2011 @10:56 PM

16feb2011

went to bed tat tym lovell wake up!!haix.den,he say slp together..den he lie to me lo.so only i slp=(okie.slpt really long=)slp till around 8in e mornin.den,lovell tok to me awhile.den i fell aslp liao.slp until aound 1plus..den tok to lovell.he lyk damn sian lo.haix.feel so bad.he stay home just to pei me.haix.sorrie.

hmm.den he lyk really sian until he almost gng crazy liao leh..hmm.so ask him go out lo.he last tym de hua,wont be home de lo.now,i make until he stay home everyday just to pei me tok.sorrie.hmm.he said he damn bored.den leon nv call him.so he damn sian.its sian cos he was waitin for his call for e whole day.tats cos he was waitin.tats y he damn sian wad...haix.

i feel so damn bad bout it.haix.hmm.i realised ive been waiting for lovell to end work for months already..hmm.he said he feel useless not achievin anythin tis month cos everyday stay home do nth..hmm.now he understands how i feel when im here.i really feel damn useless when im alone here.boring.den wait for him.but,when he come back liao.i damn happy=)haha!so,its lyk all worth it de=)hehe

lovell now out to eat wif james and ping ping=)hopefully he feels beta when his got somethin to do=)hmm.sometyms,it makes me tink bout wad mummys say bout it.haha!=)maybe wad mummy says is true..but,i choose not to believe although in my heart i noe tats e truth?...how stupid eh?haha!!but,tats fine=)

anw,now,im stressin over wad to eat for dinner.how to cook e chicken..butter chicken or e salted chicken.den wif maggie mee.hahah!=)im starvin.but only can eat one meal=)

jr precious moments at 10:56 PM

@10:19 AM

16feb2011

i tot lovell went to bed for more den 4hrs already!i tot he slpt for a really long tym liao..but,i just realised he fell aslp for less den 3hrs la!!OMG!!!!tym passes so fuckin slowly tonite!!!='(y?='(dunno y tonite tym pass so damn slow la!!!i had a bowl of soup,my clam chowder=)den,oso had crisps.den watched drama and kangxi...hmm.can tym pass faster from now onwardS?haix...

sian.den skype cant see lovell liao cos just now lost connection den i kup cos scared wake him up.den he really woke up den call me back.den he fell back aslp.haha!=)muuuackx!!

jr precious moments at 10:19 AM

@8:08 AM

15feb2011

woke up wif lovells fone ringin.tink it was his mom or denley ba=)hhaha!but he was aslp.so he dont rmb wad denley said.hahah!=)anw,lovell woke me up at around930.den my stomach fuckin pain lo=(haix.den i continue slp lo..fuckin pain la!i only noe i wake up look at lovell,he was slpin all along lo..haha!but off and on i can hear him tokin to mom and everythin.haha!=)den he tried wakin me up at 11ish..den mt stomach still fuck pain='(den in e end nv go school liao lo=(wanted to go de.but really damn pain la!=(haix.

den finally woke up at 1.but lovell wasnt dere.he went to pom pom.den tok to him when he came back=)we toked for e whole day lo!!hehe=)he say his mom tomolo wanna go shoppin wif him at ion..wanna buy him a belt,lucky i dint buy for him tat day=)imagine lovell lim holdin mummys hand shoppin at ion!hahah!so cute and funny!!hahahha!

and den,he bloody hell lied to me la!urgh!i asked him if he high,he said no.liar!!he's e one who wans to stop e highness.den wan me help him..den,lyk i said,if i dont allow,he'll hide it from me and do it!!and,true enuff..3 days and he did it....oh well,den he hungry so went to make soup which turned to be maggie mee=)his mom make for him..den shun bian tok to him..so we dint tok lo..den i called mummy to tok to her lo..tis 2 weeks dint tok to her at all.haha!=)den tok to her and daddy.den,tok tok tok tok tok.mummy bought me a desigual top and wanted to buy me a bag.but dint buy cos scared i dont lyk.lucky she dint buy!so ex!hahah!=)i rather she get me wad i wanted all along=)hehehe=)

okie.aft kup wif mummy,den toked back wif lovell.hmm.he called leon den gng out wif him ltr..so ya..go out wif leon means high again le.so,ya..anw,toked to jasmine too!!i totally understand how she feels.shes feelin how i felt all along..but when yew love somebody so much,yew loss ur rational and yewve just gotta ren everythin..maybe its lyk wad jasmine said..hafta be emotionless which she doesnt wan to be lyk,which i already am to certain tings..anw,we talked bout it den made me kinda down and tink thru e past 10months..and realised im so different from who i tot i am!haha!!=)love!love is so painful sometyms.but,its fine as long as lovell is happy=)

okie.den i was so hungry so cook maggie again.den leon called den lovell was gng out soon le..toked abit more,den leon called so,he went out..so he go out wif leon so defo high de.haix..nvm..i dowan to restrict him from anythin..he can do wad he feels lyk and wad he lyks=)den,he went off..

hmm.dunno leh..sometyms just feel tat...i noe he wanna be wif me all e tym..but he defo feels bored bout bein home everyday just tokin to me.he wans to go out and have fun and not stay home lyk everyday just to tok to me.tis was wad i meant from e beginnin..i aint wanna lock him down.look,if dere wasn me,he couldve been out every single nite havin fun instead of stayin in his small room tokin to me..i dont wan him to be doin tis.but when he goes out,im lyk down for a bit but,im fine tat hes gng out.but maybe not wif his bros fren ba..i dunno.haix..just even his clique,now im feelin abit lyk..i dunno..haix.needa change!!!!!!mel say i cannot be tooo sticky!!so i needa be less sticky or non stick at all!!!CHANGE!!!=)yea.and jasmine..jasmine is feelin how i feel so often,almost everyday..hopefully she doesnt do silly stuffs!!but if its me,im sure i will be doin silly tings!...hmm..if i were to be single,i wud ask her to ignore everythin and tok tings out..if doesnt work out,den bye bye..but now im in e same situation as her,all i can tell her is ren!!everythin oso ren!even if tok to him bout it,maybe he changes for a day or 2,but,e 3rd,he'll change back to wad he was lyk 3 days ago..so,deres no point in tokin to em about it...just hafta be strong and ren everythin=)den e r/s will be alright=)jasmine,we work towards our goal together which is makin e brothers happy!=)

okie.i emo abit,den he came back le.pretty early..den he say he hungry so he went to make 8 chicken wings,8 seaweed chicken and a can of baked beans!!!OMG!!MONSTER!den i had my ice cream=)hmm.he say i look pissed,but im not!really not.just confused.i mean lyk lovell promise he wont do tis,den aftall,he still did..i dunno y i feel lyk tat but..its fine=)its all gone now=)just hafta continue trustin him=)hmm.now lookin at him slp,makes me forget everythin tat i aint wanna tink about=)i love yew hun=)
oh ya..bout yew not being able to come,its fine hun=)dont worry bout it!im really not disappointed!cos i nv expected yew to come from e beginnin=)so dont worry bout it k?when i come back in april,if i can persuade mummy to lemme go on a holiday,den we go together,k?if not we go out for a day trip to e zoo or sentosa,okie?=)muackx!i love yew.thanks for wantin to make me happy hun!=)

jr precious moments at 8:08 AM

@7:38 AM

11feb2011-14feb2011

okie.went to london..went straight to dolphin square straight up e flat..den rested for a bit,den went china town to eat liao=)took bus to chinatown,went to find mummys iphone cover.but went dere dint get to find a nice one=(so dint buy any..den went to japanese centre to eat dinner..reach den forgot i everytym eat chicken or pork katsu don.haha!=)so called lovell and ask.hehe=)he went to ktv wif bros and frens to drink and sing..hmm,i haven been to ktv b4 lo..hahah!=)den aft tat,he go home wif bro and company to high..lyk enjoy only lo his life...high finish,den we toked on e fone..tok tok tok den he fell aslp liao.so slp together lo.

12feb2011

woke up at around 10ish.OB went to tis choc breakfast ting..i dint go cos nv book my place..anw,i stay in bed liao den went pom pom and tok to lovell on e fone..den pom pom finish ob text me say gng to brighton den say meet at victoria station at 1230.so i make hot e big bao den went out to take bus le.met em at e station den trained to brighton lo..on e way toked to lovell=)hmm.den he today stayed at home.feel so bad sia.he stay home tat tym den i cannot pei him.haix=(so sorrie!anw,went walk around at brighton.went to local pub to have lunch.nice food=)but no fb connection=(cant tok to lovell.walk around shops lookin..saw a cover shops den went in look for cover for mummy=)den,lovell called.say he found out smth really serious.scare e hell outta me.but i was kinda busy..so,called him back when reach e organic supermarket.called him den he say he found out tat i wanna borrow money from jen and mel to come back!james told him!damn him!!!urgh!spoil my plan!haixx.den somehow e plan changed to he come here find me.den he go look up all e airline tings and everythin..was kinda excited,but somewhere in my heart i noe he wont be here=)haha!so ya..just mess around lo.anw,toked to him bout it on e train..tok tok tok,den went to sainsbury to buy groceries go home cook=)bought alot tings to cook=)hehe=)went back home,lovells bro back from date wif jasmine liao.den they start le.so,ya..den cook liao.den wash dishes den collect laundry=)den aft huns back,den tok to him all e way again until he fall aslp=)hehe=)he fell aslp liao,den i hungry le..so i had garlic bread!yummy!damn nice la!!den damn fat oso!OMG!!!!!!!!=(aft eat,jiu fall aslp liao sia!!FAT!!!

13feb2011

woke up quite early for breakfast!so excited for it lo!dunno y..haha!=)had english breakfast=)yum yum=)and im stayin over another nite=)hun went out eat wif dad cos bro needa book in=)they went eat den he talked to dad bout him comin over.dad say just give him money and he'll get e tickets for him..den went out wif ob meet auntie rita for lunch.eat dim sum=)hehe=)yum yum=)anw,den lovell met jen take e 500 from him.den he sit down and tok to jen.den i went shoppin at liberty=)nth to shop just tok to lovell=)hmm.den went to oxford street john lewis to get groceries to cook chicken wings=)hheehe!bought 2 shirts too=)den,went home aft tat liao.went home tok to lovell but hafta start cookin liao.den cook le den eat,eat liao den dar called me!!!!!shocked me!!!e news she gave me was even more shockin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!anw,told OB bout it.den ya............feel so bad..aft tat,im hungry!!!!!so ate garlic bread again!=)ehehe=)so fat!but,eat finish,i not full at all!!!OMG!!Im so dead!eat so much now la!!urgh!finally went back to room den tok to lovell finally!!!!!!he wait for me damn long la!!i feel so damn bad bout it lo!!sorrie and thanks hun!=)tok to him den he fell aslp le.den i oso slpt aft he slp=)

14feb2011

happy valentines day!!!!!=)woke up really early for breakfast=)so excited for breakfast lo!!went wif small OB only..had english breakfast again=)yummy!!!aft breakfast went up to shower..hmm.apparently lovells mom told leo bout wad lovell wanna do.den leo toked to lovell bout it.so,he damn emo bout it.den he not comin liao lo..i mean seriously,i dont feel sad bout it or anythin.cos i expected tis to happen anytym.lyk on mon or tues b4 he book tics=)haha!i mean i was still wonderin y her mom haven tell leo bout it to tok to lovell bout it.hehe!=)oh well,den he whole day damn emo bout it lo.den i dunno how to an wei him lo.haix.den he damn no mood tok to me at all=(haix.den he slpt le lo..he slp le den i went to slp too le lo.slp till 230 den i woke up..den,damn thirsty.so drank hungry water=)hehe.too sweet=)read news and everythin jiu go back to slp liao lo.hmm.i feel so bad..i mean,look,if i dint tell james bout it..den he wont be able to noe.den he wont so emo.den everythin will not make until lyk tat den i will be able to fly back to spore in lyk a week la!!!haix..sorrie hun=(happy valentines day hun=)i love yew!=)

jr precious moments at 7:38 AM

Friday, February 11, 2011 @8:02 PM

11feb2011

im a happy girl!!!!im chattin wif lovell on fb!!so happy wake up den can chat wif him liao!=)heehe=)im happy but im a lazy girl though...needa wash so many bowls and everythin den gng london ltr..sian!!!!shudn have told OB i wanna go lo!!rite??=(now i just wanna stay here wait for lovell come home=)

jr precious moments at 8:02 PM

@9:36 AM

10feb2011

opps.ended up drinkin abit too much..opps..dunno y i drink so much...maybe cos im bored or smth..i dunno.haha!=)or just cos im crazy!hahaha!i wanna just get outta my mind for a moment!but now tink of it!!drinkin gains weight!!i needa find smth to get me outta my mind temporary but doesnt gain weight!!!hahahah=)anyone??hahahahahah

hmm.lovell fb me when it was 2ish whn i was eatin my pasta and drinkin my drink..hahah!=)tok to him abit.den he say he comin home liao..he came home at around 5ish ba..i guess?i cant really rmb cos i drank!haahh!den tok to him..he go pom pom den we played a small game,den he went back room den we toked den,fire alarm went off!!god damn it!!!!naz set e fire alarm off!!3rd tym our flat set it off!!hahah!

went downstairs...abit off.drank too much.keep smilin to whoever was dere.hahah!=)den tok to random ppl.haha!den saw yutin den went to stand wif her and naz..tok abit..lucky i drank den i not cold at all!!totally not cold!!!hahah=)tok tok tok..den finally alarm off liao,den came back up tok to lovell=)den he say i make himw anna smoke cos i did!!idiot!!so he went smoke..den he allow me drink another cup!so was totally over as in enuff to make me high and not myself already=)hahha!cos i have 1/4 and a bit of a bottle of vodka to myself.!!a cup empthy stomach was enuff already!hahah!=)

anw,tok to him abit den he went to bed liao..i love lookin at lovell lim slp!!how?i miss him sooooo much now!!lyk really miss him alot!!how?!!?!im lookin at him orh orh-in now=)hheehheh.now i dont feel lyk gng to london liao.i wanna stick to him 24/7..but his bro bookin out..den he sure pei him out de..so,i mite as well go to london rite?i dunno..

hmm.drank so much,now i cant go to bed!!how?!?ahhhH!!!!!!!but i love yew hun!i really do!!!=)

jr precious moments at 9:36 AM

@12:36 AM

10feb2011

woke up when lovells fone ring..den he dint answer it somemore..so kinda woke up by it..but e video was off liao.so ya=(den i continue to slp lo.but not totally aslp..lovells fone ring again i jiu wake up again le lo..den,heard him tellin whoever tat he still slpin..den i fell back aslp liao.den he kinda mute his mic=(so yea..

den i woke up le,around 8ish here,he on video..den ya.he told me daddy called him!ask him bout attachment and work stuffs!so random!!OMG!!den he oso called school liao.sch ask him dunno email em wad..ya.so he dint have any reply and answer to e attachment yet..den he tell me he high again..hmm.dunno leh.he looks lyk his addicted to it liao lo..its fine tat his playin it.cos if i were to play it,i wudnt wan him to not allow me to..but e only condition to it,was dont and never to get addicted but now,it seems lyk he is addicted to it liao=(haix..now,he everyday oso needa play liao..seems lyk addiction le..tts fine as long as not lyk proper addiction..he makes me wanna try it now..no good..smokin drinkin and high-in..haha!sounds fun eh??....

anw,tok to him awhile,denley called so he tok to denley den went outta e room to tok to him..dunno y..so,waited for him lo..but b4 he went outta room i heard him say meet go out.so i noe he gng out liao.anw,waited for him to finish tokin..den he came back room den say he gng out wif denley and his mom is back,so nv tok liao jiu kup le lo=(he say will call me back ltr..but,oh well,he dint..i fell back aslp den dint go to sch..yupps.overslpt.by e tym i woke up,lovell went out le i guess.so,yea..woke up,dunno wad to do..damn sian..den tok to mel and jasmine bout somethings..and made e decision liao.so hopefully wil work out ba=)ya..

anw,toked to em den toked to james,den tok tok tok tok tok..den lovell fb me finally say hes sorrie nv pei me and all tat again..nvm la.its fine.im already gettin use to it already=)so no worries bout it..he just fb me say he finish dinner liao..now gng to go drink wif denley and,i dunno who else dere ba..hmm..he seems gone?but perhaps not?i dunno..

hmm.i miss life lyk his='(go drink have fun wif frens..really do..i hate just sittin in tis small room on tis small bed waitin for i dunno wad..perhaps waitin for end of term to come?...how meaningless is life lyk tat?come back to uk for start of term,e first ting im waitin for is for tym to pass to end of term..im losin myself already..losin my enthu in everythin..oh well..wait wait wait ba..3 more yrs.i dunno if i can last 3 more years or not..yea..

now im waitin for tym pass,den go pom pom..den wait for dinner..tink im havin dinner wif yuting ba...dunno.

hopefully hun is alrite and will be alrite ba..but tats a nice way of him to enjoy himself=)

jr precious moments at 12:36 AM

@12:02 AM

9feb2011

woke up a couple of tyms.but lovell was already out..he met leon and e rest eat at tamp..i woke up den dunno wad to do,so continue orh orh..woke up at around 2ish den cook maggie..was damn bored.so cook smth to eat since deres nth to do...anw,aft eatin,lovell called me.say hes home wif em.they wanna gamble..so find a place to gamble.so go his place lo..

tok to him for abit den he went back to em den he called again say tok to me..den we tok abit den he say he gng out to high liao..so kup le lo..hmm.den i watch kang xi lo.watched 3 eps of kang xi..so sian..so bored..oh well..nvm..

den lovell called me at 3ish say hes home..he dint even go out.he high at home.so,ya.den he pom pom..den pom pm finish jiu tok to him lo..but his fren dunno how get his bros bike started so lovell went to help him..den come back tok awhile den he go meet fren again..dunno for wad..den,ltr my com hang,so toked on e fone..

i realised we can only tok when we're on e fone.cant tok when we're on webcam..sometyms i miss tyms where we use to tok,when i was still in worksop..we use to tok every nite bout e day and everythings tat happened for tat day..even if it was for 10mins or so,but i felt more involved and dere for him..now?i dunno..

anw,we toked bout everythin..about how crazy we were and everythin..den lovell started plannin our future room and everythin..sweet but not realistic..tok tok tok..den my com can liao,den tok on skype den he went orh orh cos he damn tired liao.

really happy to get to tok to him=)although not bout wad happened in e day for him,but toked bout unrealistic tings,im am still happy tat i got to tok to him=)anw,my com have to hang!so,he fall aslp liao,i jiu restart com..restart liao jiu went to cook pasta eat..ate at 10ish..tasted good..finish eatin den watch another ep of kang xi..den started discussin tings wif mel..den looked up some things..dunno wad to do oso.sian..anw,lovell called me at spore 8ish mornin..den kept e webcam on..he fell back aslp e moment he press call..

so aft awhile,i went to bed liao lo..yupps.

jr precious moments at 12:02 AM

Wednesday, February 9, 2011 @6:54 AM

7feb2011,8feb2011

okie..woke up at 7 lo..so early.wake up den go pom pom liao,cos needa leave home at 9 go cambridge..pom pom finish den tok to lovell..tok to him bout ahem and everythin=)hehe..we said bout some truthful tings.haha!=)stood at e kitchen to tok to him so ob wont kp me=)haha!

den,we went out liao so kup le=(okie.den we took tube..change here change dere..so many ppl la!so cramped!!machiam sardine lyk tat..so first round cannot get on tube..so,second round den get on..but still lyk sardine..but lucky me!!i was pushed to a guy who looks lyk jesse mcartney!!damn shuai la!!OMG!i was lyk stickin to him la!!my head was lyk next to his head la!den i damn paiseh.haha!=)dunno where to look oso.hehe=)

anw,reach kings cross liao..den met auntie rita le,den bought ticket jiu got on train to cambridge..reach train jiu call lovell.but he nv answer.den he answer liao,he ask me why i call him so many tym!!idiot!sorrie lo.dont call him liao!haha!so,tok to him thru out e train ride=)so happy!we toked bout wormy!=)wormy wormy wormy!=)i love wormy..no..i love wormy's owner=)hehe=)den he jiu pom pom den went out meet his clique go sing k!he high go out again!he now everyday oso high..make me oso wanna high lo..sian...i wanna high high high!!=)....anw,very fast jiu reach cambridge liao.tym always passes so fast when im wif him lo..haix.reach liao jiu kup liao lo=(

okie.reach cambridge jiu take cab to kings college.stand dere wait for auntie alice..she damn long la!den it was fuckin freezin!urgh!!!ahhh!!!den while waitin,looked at e notice board and everythin.damn sian.waited until i damn sian la!=(i miss lovell so much..i keep fb-in lovell.in e end,he nv fb me liao=(haix.sian.den,auntie alice come liao jiu go eat liao.reach e restaurant liao,den realised my blue bag spoil liao=(lovell gimme de birthday bag spoil liao=(haix.den i damn depressed bout it lo.haix.told lovell den lovell say dont mind it!i mind lo!haix=(damn sad la!!haix.den whole lunch damn no mood at all=(finally finish lunch liao..den went walkin around cambridge..found it soo fuckin borin la!den hun oso singin.den i miss him soo much='(haix..sian..den walk walk walk den went to a cafe for aftnoon tea.den i had a scone.it was pretty good=)den walked to train station.fuckin far la!walk sooo much!!walk until my leg oso damn fuckin tired!reach train station den say bye to auntie alice.got on train,sat alone,den listen ipod..den lovell was kinda busy..so nv reply me.so i day dream and tink bout him..really miss him so badly lo=(haix.took bout 1hr to reach kings cross.

reach liao took cab home den walked to victoria to send alan off go back sch..walk again!leg damn tired lo=(anw,send him liao den went marks and spencer buy risotto for dinner.lovel still busy nv reply me.reach home.den he gave me a call den say he home liao.say he was high wif james at e playground wif mel and yc.but i have dinner so went to eat first.had lagsane.hmm.den tat stupid darlin of mine go watch paranomal activity 2.den damn scared aft watchin.haha!=)stupid old man..den finally creep back to my room to tok to him.he damn scared aft watchin e movie lo!haha.den i scare him he tell me dont play..can feel tat he really scared.

anw,we toked bout...ya..den tok tok tok tok tok tok bout it....den he went to orh orh liao.but he damn scared den cannot fall aslp!ahahah!he wan me until e done ownself kup den can..so did tat lo.apparently i fell aslp while on e fone.ahaha!=)slpt wif lights on and everythin=)hahah!

woke up at 630 under loads of pillows to realised tat i actually dint turn e lights off.so went to turn it off,den reply huns msg..he went out wif leon..so go out wif leon means high again liao lo....anw,he din reply my msg so i fell back aslp.around8ish,ob came in to wake me up for breakfast.den went breakfast,ate english breakfast..so full.came back up,hun was home le..hmm.so tok to him on e fone.den he bllody hell go high again!so 2nd tym in a day le....den i went pom pom den packed and got ready to go lunch.tok awhile wif hun jiu kup den rush out le.fb lovell in e bus and everythin.but awhile he jiu nv reply liao.so sad=(miss him alot..

walked a fuckin long distance wif my fuckin heavy bag to auntie ritas hse..reach liao den put my stuffs dere den walked a fuckin long distance to a restaurant.reach dere had those really high class food..it was good=)took some pics..haha!ate at 1215 and only ended eatin at 230!!!so damn long la!!hmm.ob and rita were tokin bout their pass stuffs den i 1 person sit dere rot.lovell went to watch movie so nv reply me..so ya...rot lo....eat finish den walk damn fuckin far to bayswater to buy sau rou and duck bring back give yuting...buy liao den walk another distance to auntie rita house..went to collect my stuffs den took cab to train station.damn sian..lovell nv reply me=(den didi text me.reach dere bought ticket jiu go wait for train liao..wait wait wait...den got on,no seat..but awhile jiu got liao..

sat down till luton den got off,smoked,came back den texted aland and ob,gave e food to yuting den back to my normal life=)

now i tinkin if i wanna go to london again tis weekend!ahaha!shud i??hehe=)but i wanna pei lovell.see how.tomolo ask him wad he doin.if he gng out and everythin den i go ba....see how lo..anw,got back awhile lovell jiu reach home liao.den skype me.den he go pom pom den we tok..

den today kinda crazy abit..so,ya....den tok tok tok tok tok den he go orh orh liao..haha!=)pig!!lovell lim is a pig!!!!he slp le,i went make risotto eat.it was really good=)now watchin kang xi=)kinda tired liao.so mite go to bed soon so can wake up wif lovell.but he oso goin out wif his bros fren again..so,oso cannot tok until he come back again.so beta slp now,den tok to him when he wake up=)he go out den i slp again=)hehe=)

hmm..i miss lookin at him slp!so cute=)hahah!i love yew hun!=)muuuackx!

jr precious moments at 6:54 AM