okie.today is our 10month!its been 10 months since i got out him lovell,tis 10months have passed soo quickly!but when i actually tink back,2months in worksop,2months in uni(xmas term) and now 3months in uni(easter term),its been soo slow wifout him!tym was not movin at all.it practically stopped!when im back for my holidays,tym just went tickin away..just lyk the forward button was bein pressed..in a blink,holiday was gone and ive gotta come back to uk alone..i had leavin him behind..im sorrie..

hmm.lovell read my blog and saw everythin tat ive written for e past week..ive only been bloggin for less den 2 weeks im sure.but ive got sooo many posts!!!anw,he read,and he started cryin.he felt bad for wad he've done and not done..e purpose of e blog was not to make him feel bad.but so tat i can have somewhere to empty all my feelings and troubles to..well,he read and felt tat he was a lousy bf.but for me,i love who he is.although tym to tyms he loses temper,e way where he care so much for me,i just love e way he is..he said he'll change,i dont wan him to change.i dont wanna change him.i love him..

today,woke up at 7 not feelin well,drank e whole bottle of water!felt beta and went to bed..lovell called me when he was gng out wif his dad.but i just rmb him tokin to me and i was just listenin and not replyin to him..haha!!=)i fell aslp.woke up at 1.e first ting was,look at fb cos i rmb hearin loads of emails!haha!=)and im soo happy!!!lovell sent me sooo many msges on fb!!!i was smilin to myself..i was touched.so touched.i dint expect him to send me soo many!!!!thanks hun!!=)

woke up,prepared and went out to e same italian restaurant.they dint serve pasta today only roast='(so had roast..sat abit and walked around e mall den went home..

managed to tok to lovell!!toked and today as its our anni,we had smth special=)but i made me miss him even more..i really hope he was he wif me.but,im not forcin him.really.i aint wan him to quit school just to come and accompany me for 2 weeks..im really happy to noe tat he is willin to do all those for me.but e thought is enuff,i aint wan him to really do it=)

anw,10th month and .....i'll rmb today!!=)lovell only went to bed at 5!im sorrie.make yew stay awake..i dint mean to.i only said wad i tot.den i dint noe yew..yew noe..ya.sorrie..hes gotta wake up at 9.gng to cut hair.but,im supopse to wake him up at 8,which im not gng to do=)haha!!i went to shower when he went to bed.now im makin hot e left over pizza and 6 meatballs for dinner=)im starvin!ive been eatin so unhealthily for tis weekend!!2 pizzas,cabonara,roast!OMG!!FAT!!!nvm.tis comin week eat lesser den next weekend and next next weekend eatin more again cos OB is here!ahh!!!!LONDON!!opps!haha!=)FAT!control control!!hehe

okie.toked to daddy bout e tax refund ting..apparently ive gotta feel up a form tingy den submit it in b4 departure at london..so,must rmb!!!!!!!=)hopefully i can get it.wif tax refund,at least cheaper=)hehe..

and,last of alL!HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!=)im sorrie e card will be late although i sent it lyk last week!!but,it was sent to me instead of yew!!haah=)

oh and lovells gonna meet daddy and mummy tomolo to return keys and help me go buy chocolate from chocs and give to mummy as her bdae present for now!and im gettin her a red,pink or purple iphone4 cover as her real bdae present!=)hehe.hopefully everythin goes well tomolo wif lovell and mummy..cos lovell cutin and dyin his hair..yupps.sooo..ya