Wednesday, January 26, 2011 @11:56 PM
26jan2011
Revision not done.den watched drama nia.damn shag!worried but really dunno how to revise!haix=’(gemma texted me and asked me bout revision.she isn’t gng on well wif it as well..yupps.haix.tink we’re all so dead already!haix
Anw,cooked dinner.cooked pasta.bought penne and a cheese and bacon sauce.added meatballs and mushrooms to it.hmm.e sauce tasted weird I tot.yupps.still prefer rice!haha=)aft eatin,watched kangxi for a bit den lovell woke up at spore 830.and my fuckin internet had to be cut off when he wake up!!damn!den cannot connect back on!so lovell called me on my fone.den we tok while he did his resume tingy..den elsa came to knock on my door ask me if my internet workin anot.apparently marica says tat everyones internet not workin!wah!!damn shag liao lo!haix=’(dunno tomolo will okie anot lo!haix.so,I continue tok to lovell on e fone..every one hr hafta kup once.
Hmm.i realised we tok more when we’re on e fone.we toked quite abit.bout pri sch,sec sch and all tat!!!at least get to really tok to him today liao.haha=)we haven been tokin much tis tym I gt back here.he end work,den its lyk e routine.e little game we play,and other tat,he’ll go to bed=(it just makes me wonder again y did he tok to me for?just for tat???
Anw,tok tok tok,we toked for lyk 3hrs=)yippee=)so happy.hmm.den he called me e 4th tym askin me to go to bed liao.hmm.well,I cant go to slp.i dunno y.i told him I got loads of stuffs in my head tis morning and aftnoon and I couldn’t fall aslp.but I lied bout e bit where I said I dunno wad about..tis morning I cudnt slp cos I was waitin for him to at least reply my msg on fb.but wait wait wait,he nv.so I cudn fall aslp soundly at all=(den aftnoon,I was waitin for him to reply me on fb as wel cos he was out wif his bro fren.den he said he’ll fb me.so I waited..den I started tinkin bout e changes and wad he was doin and all tat.so I cudn fall aslp at all although I was sooo tired…but,oh well,im not intendin to tell him any of it.
He said he tells me everythin.but,I mean,he only tells me when I ask.but if I keep askin its as though Im interferin wif his life.maybe its cos im here and his dere and I wanna be involved and noe wad he was doin when he was out wif his bro fren..but he nv told me anything about it.so I tink maybe I shudn ask too den…he tells me ‘I love yew,I really do love yew a lot’ it makes me wonder…am I tinkin too much or wad?i dunno..
Seriously wifout e blog,I suppose I’ll be lyk last term,sittin by e table cryin everyday..i had no one to tok to..i had nth to do..it was too bored till I cudn take it and started cryin myself to bed every nite..lovell doesn noe bout it till I told him when I was back in spore.maybe I shudn have told him bout it.i mean,lyk just now,he ask me go slp..although I said okie.but I noe very well tat im lyin to him,but I still told him I’ll go to bed.den he started sayin make sure I go to bed wor and don’t start cryin say he nv pei me.i nv wan him to pei me 24/7.i just hope maybe he cud send me msges tym to tym just lyk how it was when I first came to uni…but I suppose tings have changed…
But I really just wan him to noe,even if I go out wif frens or in sch,he’s still my priority.i send him msges tym to tym tellin him wad im doin..every single details although it seems lyk im tokin to myself.im still doin wad I did e first tym i return to uk in april 2010..im really happy to wake up and see tat ive got a msg on my fb from him.but now,I rarely see tat anymore…
Now,I cant go to bed and I aint wanna disturb lovell from wadever he is doin..since he’s e one who chased me off to bed..i tink I’ll watch ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni again,since I got no internet connection=(but hes in my head………
