Gonna post again.although nobody reads tis.but since im bored,i shud post to pass tym..i can record my thoughts and feelins here..many tings happened and tis is wad happened tat made me wanna write my feelings somewhere.but i dunno where and who i can tok to..george wouldn listen to all tis small tings.i cant possibly tell him,i cant tell family..so,i shud just type it here...

hmm.today,731am,17jan2011,he raised his voice for e first tym when i wake him up.'CAN YEW STOP!' 

hmm..aft tat,dunno y,i felt tis strange feelin in my heart and it hurts..e first reaction i had was to put down e call on skype straight away..e next ting i knew was tears rollin off my cheeks..

hmm.i dunno y im lyk tat.but im upset..now hes controlled my emotions and everythin.i nv knew i was tis weak in a relationship..well,he did call and apologise.but apologisin comes so often tat i no longer noe if he ever meant it anymore.but,oh well,i cant do anythin but type it here for myself to read ltr on...i feel so much beta now aft typin tis,but it all comes back when im on e fone wif him.i dunno wad to say..just pretend nth happen...