aft wakin lovell wifout him raisin voice at me,pei-ed him tok until kallang,i tried to slp.but dunno y i miss him so much..i cant slp=(

hmm.well,daddy woke up,so toked to him for a few mins asked him to get me those duck tongue,kidney and everythin from hk,den mummy woke up,den talked.they went to hk in e aftnoon.dunno they now dere how?hmm.i actually miss em so much='(i wanna tok to e but it just end up in an arguement.its just pointless.now,all i can tok to is tis,blog.alan no longer toks to me,i cant tell daddy mummy anythin..george cant be bothered.lovell,i dunno how tell him some tings..anw,i'll just type here everyday till i get back=)

hmm.went to sch to meet cher.couldnt wake up at all.lovell had to keep wakin me up.he went to feed didi meimei.had mac nuggets for lunch.went for lecture and for e first tym i borrowed a book outta library=)lovell went teoheng wif ali and james.den yingchuan came.hmm.he told me how he disturb ali and yc..he was tryin to kiss ali james and yc..dunno i xiao qi or wad.but i dont lyk e fact he wanted to kiss yc although is just disturb..maybe cos she is yc.but i cannot restrict him to all e rules normal couples do..im here and hes alone dere.if anythin happens,i'll just hafta face it.oh well..but doesnt he feel weird disturbin his ex by wantin to give her a kiss?i dunno..doesnt matter anw..

hmm.he called me at 12ish sayin he's home and apologisin to me tat he nv pei me..just lyk always,apologise comes too often tat i no longer noe if he meant it or just sayin..i dont and cant blame him for gng out wif frens.just lyk wad jasmine said,i cant restrict him.he's got his life to live.is just tat tings have changed so much since we 30/03.i was always in e first place even when i was back in uk.i noe im selfish but,it just shows how tings have changed and will change over e months..fb mgses gt shorter and shorter.nvm.i cannot ask for too much!!=)i just love him!!

well,back to e day.he got home,passed e fone to his mom.den i tok to her.shes worried bout leonard as well as lovell.she wans me to quan lovell to study.now lovell is gonna continue studyin,thanks to leonard=)another ting was his mom asked if lovell was still gonna come look for me as i told her im comin back in april..i said i dont tink so.i can hear from her voice she is relieve when i said no..now ive gotta quan lovell not to come..finished tokin to auntie,den toked to lovell.dint really tok much,den he fell aslp as usual.i fell aslp mins aft him while starin at him slp and only woke up at 10!!!i dreamt again=(been dreamin so much lately.i dreamt i was left standin alone at hse busstop waitin for daddy to come pick me on a rainin nite.and he nv did..he came hrs aft i was drenched standin dere waitin for him..

anw,woke up and ate meggie for dinner den watched drama and type tis..hmm.hopefully i dint pass e germs to lovell.he say he dont feel too good tink gonna sick liao='(haix.

oh ya.pass 2 nites,ive been havin very emotional dreams.first nite was i had an arguement wif mom dad and bro as usual,den me,lovell and bro were suppose to be gng to sch.we had to be in sch by 1230.but we were still home at den.so we tot no point waitin for dad to fetch us to sch so we left.when we were about to leave,dad was lyk,fine..i'll send yew to sch.but,my auntie had to jump out and mess everythin up.and e arguement started again!i was actually cryin in my slp!!!='(2nd dream which was tis mornin,i dreamt daddy brought me to worksop college to study again but as a lower 6.i was reluctant to leave daddy..we were brought to meet mr parker.dere was tis long flight of stairs..daddy was leavin!!i dint wan to stay bhind so i ran towards him hugged him and begged him to bring me home too..i started cryin and everythin.i dont lyk being left bhind once again!i wanna go home='(typin tis makes me cry again='(i hate bein left alone in uk=(i woke up in my tears to answer my mornin call from lovell.been 2 slp wakin up in tears='(hopefully dere wont be a 3rd mornin wakin up lyk tat..

tis is a long post!i believe its gonna be lyk tat for e next 3 months cos i dont have anyone to tok to..im gonna be random,lovell lim is hidin under his blankey and slpin lyk a pig now!!=)i love yew huN!!really do!=)